Trying to reach you- Jungkook ff (COMPLETED)

Chapter Fourteen: Regret and Promises

JUNGKOOK'S POV

Here we are... Waiting at the hospital corridors, anxious of the results about how Zia is. The angel still unconcious on its sleep.

Sprawled at the floor with my back against the wall, I was still in shock of what happened earlier this morning. In front of me, the boys looked tired; defeated from too much stress. All of them not talking with each other, but instead lost in their own thoughts.

Jimin however has the worst condition. He's holding up his head in his hands, eyes bloodshot red from crying all day. Lips tightly shut, but the whimpers he let out was loud and clear for everone to hear. He looked like a person whose heart was teared apart from him and couldn't do anything about it. Much to add up to his problem was: none of their parents were at home. Their father was in the U. S., while their mom was asked by her boss to attend a meeting abroad. Jimin is the only family member left to take care of Zia as of this moment and he, himself, had to make the phone call to his parents to inform them what happened.

All of us looked at him with pity, knowing he had to handle everything on his own. And us... Our purpose is to just give him comfort and stay by his side, nothing else. We felt worthless for having nothing to offer as a help to dear friend. And so now we just joined him in waiting as he share his sorrow to each and everyone of us.

Seeing how everything went down the hill just because of my mistake, stabs millions of knives that pierces my heart each minute we waited. I fell dazed just by thinking how Zia crumbled in front of me, all fragile and scared. I know what I've witnessed will give me nightmares for long time.

~flashback~

I shouted my heart out, anger getting the best of me as I try to decline her offer. Her eyes became teary, wide open from shock as her body began to shake harshly.

Realizing what I've done, I've panicked knowing I fucked up at that moment.

Her pupils dilated and she began screaming in pain. She fell from the ground and backed away from me like I was some kind of monster ready to tear her apart. Her hand began blocking her ears as she whimpers in pain, shouting everything to stop and leave her alone.

Horror filled my body and my feet became glued on the floor. I can't control any muscle for me to move and hold her tight inside my arms. I can't run out to her and comfort her weak form with everything that I have. I promised Jimin hyung to protect her precious sister, and yet here I am, being the reason for the pain inflicted to the mere person whom I sweared to protect and cherish.

Jimin hyung ran straight towards his sister but was very cautious with his actions; never knowing how the girl will react to his presence. Surprisingly, he was shoved away and Zia moved further away from his brother. Looking at his startled form, I can see how hurt he is from being rejected by the person he treasured most. What I did to his sister probably put his years of efforts to waste just to help her get back to her feet again.

Guilt washes over me, that even Yoongi hyung was rejected by his new found friend and one-sided love. I knew Zia doesn't see him the same way he looked at her. And yet here I am, being all jealous and stupid enough to let hell break loose in just seconds, because I can't help but envy how they become close with each other.

All of them gathered around her, while I'm still stuck at my place motionless and dumbfounded.

She suddenly fell unconscious and Jimin hyung caught her before her body made contact with the floor. Securing her in his arms, he shoves his face at the side of her neck crying his heart out; the cry that pierced my heart even more.