Stupid Stella (Book 2)

SS 12

I sighed as I watched the commercial on my TV. It's been two months since I last showed myself in public. Tanging si Bhem at Marco lang ang aking pinapansin. Dino and Seth were contacting me ngunit nagiging iwas muna ako sa kanila. Nagrereply naman ako sa mga messages nila, pero sa tuwing tatanungin nila kung nasaan ako, hindi ko iyon sinasagot.

"Hanggang kailan ka ba magtatago dito?" tanong ni Marco habang kumakain ng Lays sa gilid ng aking kama habang nanonood.

Hindi ko siya sinagot.

"Losyang ka na, gurl." pansin ni Bhem habang pinagmamasdan ang aking blonde hair na tinutubuan na ng itim sa roots na parang pinaka-ugly version ng ombre sa balat ng lupa.

I pouted. Maybe I'm too busy thinking what should Ii do with my life now that Kedge is gone. Planado na kasi ang lahat noon. I am thinking of him as the one who waits for me on the aisle. I am thinking of waiting for him go home while I take care of my kids and prepare our dinner. Lahat ng iyon iniisi ko pati na ang paghihingi ng tawad sa kaniya at pagpapakita na I'm willing to do whatever it takes to get him back. Planado na, then everything got fucked up.

"Maybe you have to tone down a little? Why don't you try on going back to your old self." Marco suggested. "Dami-dami mong trabaho, kumpanya obligations, commercials, meetings at kailangan mo pang ma-connect sa fans mo, like always." mabilis niyang sabi. "Ang galing galing mo. Really. Don't just sulk the fuck up. Change! Ipakita mong hindi ka magpapatibag sa mga taong nananakit sa iyo. Sila lang ang sumisira sa magandang buhay na pinag-hirapan mo. Maraming naka-suporta sa iyo, you know that. Don't let us down, don't let the Christellars down. Get back up."

"Oo nga, mahal. Sobrang agree na agree ako sa preach ni Marco." Bhem agreed. Dumukot siya ng chips sa Lays ni Marco. "And yeah, I miss your old look too. Saka tumutubo na yung natural hair mo oh. Gawin mo nang trend ang natural." She touched my hair's roots.

"Maybe I should." I gave them a little smile. "Nasabi ko na ba sa inyo kung gaano ako kaswerte sa inyo?"

"Drama time!" Marco scooted closer to me and hugged me. He smelled so manly.

Lumapit din si Bhem at niyakap ako ng mahigpit.

"Bhem, di ako makahinga! Nyeta ka!" reklamo ni Marco.

"Ako nalang kasi Marco." pag-bibiro ni Bhem. Marco winced in disgust and ran away from Bhem.

"Baboy ka!" Sigaw na pang-asar ni Marco kay Bhem sa labas ng aking kwarto.

Maya-maya lang ay nag-paalam na ang dalawa. Pero bago sila umais, sinigurado muna nila na maayos ako.

I stood up and went to my studio. I smiled when I saw the camera I use to film my make-up tutorials and vlogs, my ring light and lightings, my backgrounds, my make-up cabinets and my messy beauty tables.

"Okay, back to basic." I told myself as I searched for my Christetic Hair Magique hair color in my drawers. I called one of my salon stylists to help me in changing my hair color back to the simple dark brown with a bit of light brown highlights.

Matapos kong maayos ang aking buhok at magpahinga, I sat on my own stool in front of my camera. It has been months since I last sat here. Naging busy ako to go back here and film. Plus, the issue of Seth and me are still mainstream.

Huminga ako ng malalim bago i-press ang record. I smiled at my camera, not sure if they'll see the sad portion behind my smile. Sana hindi nila makita, sana.

" Welcome back to my Channel Christellars! I am very sorry for I haven't uploaded on my channel for almost a year. Sobrang naging busy lang talaga. So today, ang gagawin lang natin ay Back To Basic look. Sa mga Christellars diyan na from basic, nag-explore and realized part of them were lost at kailangang bumalik sa dati, nako! Ito ang para sa inyo."