The Bad Boys and I

CH 21 Is this a good idea

Rachel Pov

I entered the house and people began to whisper. Some came up to me smiling giving me hugs and asking if I'm okay.

I did what my doctor told me to do when I got uncomfortable smile and nod instead of freaking out.

I smiled and nodded my way to the kitchen. Took up a bottle water and drank half it before resting it on the table.

"You okay?" Damien asked coming in view. I'm tired hearing people ask me that, I don't want to hear those words anymore. I sighed then answered.

"I'm okay"

"Rachel come we have a surprise for you" Andy came pulling me away from Damein.

The cheerleaders were in the center of the room. "This one's for you" Michelle said getting into position.

They performed the first dance I ever choreographed when I was captain. The dance was in between horrible and funny, I had to go home after my chess match and choreographed another dance after I finished wrote my debate and my homework.

Watching them made me laugh. It was so funny and then the music change and they performed the last dance I ever choreographed it was awesome.

I had fun watching them, when they were finished we all clapped. The cheerleaders came up hugging me all at once, I didn't want them all surrounding me like that I felt trapped I needed to move and tried but they held me tight and I started to freak out making them all let go of me instantly.

The look on everyone's faces showed me coming here was a mistake. I ran up the stairs straight up to Andy's room. I balled up in a corner and cried.

"Rachel. Do you want to leave?" I looked up to see Damien standing over me. I kept crying, now he can tell me I told you so.

He gave me a sad face before sitting beside me.

"Take me home"

I got home in a half an hour. I went into the kitchen. The chef always makes peach cobbler for me knowing it's my favorite. I grabbed it and a fork and walked to my room with Damien walking slowly behind me.

We sat silently as I ate. He turned on Titanic and we watched it also very silent. The ending came and I cried and he held me in his arms and kissed my forehead smiling.

I waited for him to fall asleep some time after ten. I took up my phone to message my terapist Doctor Andrews.

Me: Can I have a session tomorrow?

She replied right away.

Doctor Andrews: have you heard of exposure therapy?

(AN: Exposure therapy can be particularly helpful for flashbacks and nightmares. One approach uses virtual reality programs that allow you to re-enter the setting in which you experienced trauma.)

Me: it's a type of Psychotherapy

Doctor Andrews: eleven tomorrow

I didn't replied the words exposure therapy scared me. I need help I guess I would have to live with my fear and hopefully she would give me prazosin to take because Doctor Cameron gave me something else which is useless.

I went to the bathroom and splashed water on my face. I left my room to carry down my dirty dishes to the kitchen. Then took up a banana and ate it slowly.

"Why aren't you sleeping" Crissy came in and asked.

"How was your trip. I never got a chance to ask" I answered her question with a question. I asked my mom to give Crissy a little two months vacation.

"That's because your incident occurred two days after I got back. But it was lovely. Bahamas beaches are beautiful"

I sighed remembering the last time I went to the Bahamas. Four years ago it was my dad, Ricky and I. Mom was there for a little while then she had to leave then dad put us on a plan because he had to leave as well. Ricky and I spent the rest of our summer at home. Crissy tried cheering us up.

"Well I have an appointment tomorrow with Doctor Andrews. I'm going to need sleep" I smiled and gave her a hug before running up to my room.

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