Silence
What is silence
To a person whose head is full of noise
Of never ending whispering
Static
And sometimes
Screaming
What is silence
To someone who is constantly hearing
When there's always a ticking
A tune or some barely there whispers
In gibberish
What do I say
When someone quiets it
The static, the screaming, the tic tock ticking of some distant clock that might be there but probably isn't anywhere
How do I tell someone
That they take the noise away
Just by being there
They bring silence
And for the first time
I hear it
I experience it
I feel it
I know it
Silence
Somehow this breath taking angel from heaven
Found me
And quieted my noise
And locked away my nightmares
Night terrors
And sleep paralysis
Just by laying next to me in my bed
And being
And maybe if one started
She'd just kiss my forehead
And lock them away
Her soft lips the key to the open lock in my head
She's gone now
I broke her heart
In the sickeningly childish rage of a dependent psychotic
That was confused, hurt, scared, and desperate
Reaching for something too far away
Closer than perceived
I threw my hand to reach and crashed right through the very thing I wanted so desperately to keep
To hold
Gently
Not rip through
Harshly
I'm sorry
But sorry doesn't fix shit
I'll grow from this
Die from this
Searching for
Silence
10/4/17 7:10 AM
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Bad Poetry for Nobody But Me
ŞiirI've been writing more since I stopped talking to everyone so I guess I'll post some here for no one to read. More for safe keeping than anything tho tbh.
