Honey (A Keith Powers Story)

Chapter 38

2 weeks Later

I knocked on the door hoping she would answer. It's been two weeks since the fight and I just wanted to give us both time until we could talk about it. It's so crazy how it went down, as soon as I went home that morning. All of her things were gone and that's when it felt real. Although, I didn't want to be with her anymore. Seeing her things gone from my house was bittersweet. She was staying at one of her friend's. I heard the door finally open. There she was looking at me with a blank expression. She hesitated a little "Can I come in? I asked. She closed the door to unlock it. She stood to the side, letting me enter. I walked in watching her sit on a stool. She was very quiet, almost as if she wasn't here and it was hard to look at.

"I just want to say that I'm sorry and-

"And it wasn't your intentions" she said smartly crossing her arms.

"It wasn't" I said.

"You didn't deserve any of that. I don't want you to think that, I didn't want to be with you because of Honey or anything. I haven't been happy in the relationship for a while and I should've been man enough to tell you. I just didn't want to hurt you. You know I'm genuine and I couldn't be a horrible person if I tried" I explained

She smiled "I know, it wasn't your intentions and I know your heart Julian. It just hurts like hell that you didn't tell me. It just hurts that I had to find out like that" she said calmly.

"I was fighting and arguing and I feel like you made me into this insecure person"

"How? I asked sitting beside her. "You fucking kissed her" she snapped. "Before that, what did I do? I asked.

"All I did was train and fight, train and fight. I've been famous for some years now and I've only been to two industry parties. The only thing I wanted was to have a little more of your attention" I explained

"You know what Julian. I'm so tired of you bashing me for simply being focused on something that could benefit me" she said

"I'M FUCKING SICK OF IT! I HAD TO DO WHAT I HAD TO DO. I REFUSED TO BE ONE OF THIS BITCHES OUT HERE THAT DEPENDED ON A NIGGA FOR EVERYTHING" she snapped.

"YOU KNOW HOW I COME UP. MY MOTHER ON WELFARE WITH 5 KIDS TRYING TO MAKE ENDS MEET AND MY DADDY WORKING DAY AND NIGHT, LITERALLY DYING JUST SO HE CAN FEED HIS KIDS" she screamed.

"BOTH OF MY PARENTS ONLY HAVING MIDDLE SCHOOL EDUCATION. I didn't want that. I wanted better for myself" she yelled pointing to herself.

"GOD, but that doesn't mean get attention from somebody else" she said knocking over her things on the table.

I rubbed my face just sitting there taking in everything she was saying. She rarely screamed like this so it was a surprise. I hated talking to her sometimes she can be so one sided at times. I know her education meant the world to her and I never tried to take that away from her. Even though there's no excuse for what I did. There's still a reason for why I wasn't happy.

She calmed down "Did you sleep with her? She asked. "Not at all, plus she was pregnant" I said.

"So if she wasn't pregnant you would've slept with her? She asked. I shook my head "No" I said.

"She really lost the baby? She asked looking as if she was concerned. "Yeah, a few days ago" I said. "Damn, I kind of feel bad how things went about. I didn't know Amber was going to do all of that" She said looking over at me. "I swear" she added

"I know" I said. I know Sevyn wasn't one to steal and I'm quite sure she was just as shocked as we all were with Amber. "I could've handled it differently, maybe I shouldn't have judged her. I just wanted it to be true, I was so in denial that you wanted to be with her. All I was worried about was if she wanted to be with you, I desperately didn't want it to be the other way around. Her statement right there had me feeling so guilty.