Honey (A Keith Powers Story)

Chapter 28

Honey

I applied extra makeup to my face; dabbing my beauty blender all around my eyes. My face was getting better day by day, but it wasn't helping that I developed large bags under my eyes from the lack of sleep I was getting. I would only sleep for about 3 hours, and then wake up with another reoccurring nightmare and be up the rest of the morning. Today I was going to my job to see what Kay wanted from me. I jumped out of my thoughts at the sound of my phone ringing. Once I looked at the screen to see that it was Julian. I slowly grabbed it watching it ring. I sighed answered it

"H-hello" I said

"Wassup Honey where the fuck you been at? He asked wasting no time to check me for going ghost. I forgot how deep his voice was on the phone.

"No where, I just bee-

"Wassup with you? I've been calling you to check if you were alive" he said cutting me off.

"I'm okay, I just been on the low" I said fixing my hair. Truth was I was feeling weird that Julian saw me at my absolute worst. I've always been strong and had my shit together. Even as a kid nothing phased me. Julian could tell me I looked a mess back in the day and I'd tell him to go fuck himself. But now I feel small, I'm still not feeling any better mentally and I don't want him spending all his time worried about me. Although I appreciated him being there for me, I kind of felt myself falling into another depression and I don't want to be bothered.

"I feel you, but are you okay? You need me to come by? He asked.

"No, I'm fine" I said quickly rejecting his offer. It grew quiet and I could tell I made him upset. "Why you bullshitting me? He asked.

"OH MY GOD, I AM FINEEE"I yelled throwing the flat iron against the sink. I quickly placed my hand over my head. I didn't mean to raise my voice and have this weird outburst out of no where. It just happened, I was so frustrated the smallest things just made me tick.

I sighed "I'm sorry, I'm fine really I just don't want to be bothered right now" I said hoping he would understand.

He slightly laughed "Okay-

"Hm, what's so funny? I asked crossing my arms. Biggest pet peeve was someone laughing at me especially when I'm being serious.

"You are? Just be real, you're a grown woman right? He asked

"If things aren't going well, which I know they're not then just say it but don't avoid me on some little girl shit" he said.

"I'm not a little girl" I argued

"I didn't say you were a little girl, I said you're acting like one. Use your ears" he said smartly. I bit my tongue at his remark flipping my side bang with my finger.

"Like I said just be real" he said

"I am being real, I said I didn't want to be bothered and I meant that" I said sternly. I grew irritated at him trying to read me. I know he cares but now he's trying to low-key call me immature.

"Oh word? He asked. I didn't say anything I just looked around. "Okay you got it-

"Julian" I called coming to my senses but he already hung up. "Ughhhh" I groaned in frustration walking off. I didn't mean for it to come out how it sounded but I caught a little offense with him saying I wasn't being real. What difference would it have made if I just would've told him I didn't want to be bothered up front? I grabbed my keys and dialed his number again. Our relationship was really great at the moment and I didn't want it to be ruined. I was quickly reminded that me pushing him away was the main reason we fell off and here I am doing it again. I frowned at his phone going straight to voicemail.