hello, yes I know u haven't herd from me.im fine, well im not fine, but I am alive...well that's the wrong word to use because I've never been alive I've always been dead, I just never died.
ive been grounded,ive had to sneak on to the computer while there out,normaly im stuck in my room like a hostage.
how am I doing?im worse then ever.
4 attempts of suicide since we last talked.
im not stable.
im a mess
a bigger mess...
my friends are helping, lily even helped me climb out my window.
mark is being mark his usual worried about me,its nice to know he cares.
Susie ...I think she knows my time is gonna end soon...ive tried so much...
perry keeps telling me how much she loves me and its very comforting
I hope it will work next time,soon.
my girlfirnd and I broke up,shekissed someone else..that broke me even more.
she wants to get back together and I do to but ill just hurt her with what im gonna do.
u cant see my arm skin anymore,its covered in scars,some down,some straight,some even form a word....both arms ruined..and thighs ...and stomach.
im gonna get sectioned soon.
HE keeps coming ..everyday..im going insane..i already am.
he wants me to do it so I will....what's stopping me?
the notes are written there ready to be given,mark got his early.
I DONT WANT TO BE HERE IM SO FUCKING UGLY AND FAT AND URGGHHHH I HATE IT I HATEIT I HATE LIFE I HATE ME.
I JUST CANT DO IT ANYMOre
and do it I wont,bye x
