So there I was sat there,my note by My side,bleeding.
I tried,I failed.
Everyone's trying to save me but I've already gone,there's no point trying to help me,it's what I want,my friends all know who I am now,I think,I hate that,I didn't want them too know,bye worried about me,I just wanted to slip away,of course say bye first,that's what ill do.
I've already wrote my letter,there are things I want certain people to have.
At my funeral,I want everyone to come in the black peraide outfit,i want to be dressed in the Helena dress and I want on my grave written 'joined the black peraide'
I want everyone to smile and know I'm happy,I want my friends to do a speech,please.
I want people to play my favourite songs and I want u to invite my heroes,weather they turn up or not,please,please try.
I want everyone to remember I did not go in pain,that I'll always be there in there hearts,I'll be fine.
Don't worry about me,I'm just a girl living her nightmare.
It's dark here very dark and in waiting to see the light.
How can I live with knowing my family hate me.
Getting bullied for what I like.
Getting judged for my sexual orientation by sluts that have been horrible to me before.
For looking int the mirror and crying.
Please don't try and come with me,I don't want you to do that.
I know u don't want me to go,some tikes I feel it's for the best.
My words are fucking violent.
They make me do things,stupid things.
I broke down in front of all my friends I'm sure they all think I'm mental now.
I am.
I don't know how much I can take,I lied I do,I know how much more I can take. And that scares me.
Goodbye I love you,blue. Xxx
