Do u see a happy girl when u look at me?good that's what your supposed to see.
Not whats inside,eleven whats inside,unless it tried to sneak through out my eyes and down my cheeks In some cases it dose.
But when your not around it's always there making it's way out through my eyes,my thighs my screams and my arms,just wanting to be seen.
Don't you just love the numb feeling,I do.
If I haven't guessed already I'm fucking crazy.
'Choo choo.' Is constantly going round my head I know it's him,it's always him,he wants me at the train station.
He vists me 2 a day now,how pleasant of him to stop by.
Every morning I take my cocktail of pills,sometimes wanting to take more then I should, sometimes I mean always.
Last time I did at it just made me sick,which helped get rid of the food I shouldn't have eaten,it just makes me more fat.
I keep listing to my chemical romance to try help me and watching dan and Phil to calm me.
They help but my Demond's are strong,very strong u try fight them,you won't you'll fail.
But me and my Demond's have come to an agreement,you all know what that is and we are trying very hard to make to happen I'm just to fucking stupid to succeed.
I'm just fed up and I cry myself to sleep.
I feel like I'm walking on glass.
I feel he need to please people and if I feel someone dosent like me I try so hard for them too.
I'm drowning in my sorrow and I can't do it anymore,I gave up a long time ago,I'm just trying to escape.
I grew up to become something I never ever said I'd be.
But that's life it's a bitch and I'd rather be without it.
Know one is gonna miss me our they?
They say they will but in a few days they'll be fine.
I want to leave with nanny,I can't love without her,she gose I go.
Talking of that,mark.
mark don't follow me,okay?
All my friends think im better I'm no where near.
Tonight.
Tonight
Tonight.
Help me I'm crazy NO DONT IM FINE!!!
Good bye x
