im laying down and listing to my favorite band taking in every lyric and crying just a little bit more every second,my tears sufforcating me,i wish my tears would actualy kill me.
im worried about all of my friends at the minuet there all in a bad state i want to help but id be the biggest hypocrite ever since i have tried and will keep trying to kill myself.
lilys staying round friday and were gonna have a long chat and i think it will be nice.
right now i cant stop crying and shaking as i stare at the ingravements on my arm and leg.
i dont know what to do.
no one cares.
they dont.
im hugging my pillow but its not helping.
im in a hole a dark one with no escape.
look at me
look at me
im a mess a
fat disgusting mess
no one can save me.
u think you know me u think im the girl whos happy and u see around smilling
u dont know how mad i am
how much i cry
how much im fed up
how much i hate myself
how much i hate this
what i like
what i do when im alone
me.
i love how i feel after my sleeping pill the way half of u is shutting down
how u feel when ur pulse slows when blood escapes
the thrill of almost going.
the beauty of dying.
im walking down the dark corridor wAinting for the lights to come on.
im stuck like this.
mental.
i hate this....
im sorry....
bye love blue.
