Beautiful Soul (JhoBea Story)

Part 18... Vagueness

It took her a while to answer my question...

I'm sorry Bei...
I'm so sorry but I can't marry you..

These are the painful statements she gave me as an answer to my proposal to her.

I must admit, it wasn't a prepared one.

Minadali at walang effort kumbaga...

But the worst part of it was hearing an unexpected answer from her.

I thought you love me too? And this Jho, yung nangyari sa atin, ano pala yun? I said questioning everything that just happened between us.

I know you love me as much as I love you, but our love is not enough to make such decisions right away Bei. Trying her best to explain, I listenend with an open mind.

Alam kong maraming tao matutuwa kung magkakabalikan tayo pero sana isipin mo rin ang pwedeng maramdaman ni Jana at ng mga taong masasaktan. Paliwanang pa niya.

Pero Jho... was about to give my thoughts but she cuts me off...

She tried reaching out for my hand, rubs it like the way she used too to calm me down...

Listen to me, and listen hard okay. Mahal kita... at patuloy kitang mamahalin bilang si Bea na minahal ko noon. Pero bilang kaibigan mo rin, masaya ako sa desisyon mo na magsettle down kay Jana okay.. trying her best to explain to me in as calm as possible.

Pero Jho... singit ko ulit..

But instead she caress my face and looks at me like I am the most loved person... it was the most peaceful feeling ever...

I want to get mad... get upset pero I can't because of this...

Jana was with you during your worst Bei at hindi ka niya iniwan. Sa mga panahon na dapat ako kasama mo, she was there for you. She explained.

I had you at your best so what made you think na hindi ka magiging okay with her. Dagdag pa niya.

You will for sure be happy with her if that time comes again Bei, just trust the process remember?! She said with a smile on her face.

Tama ba pakiramdam ko?

Jho is trying to let me go... bibitawan na niya ako.... bibitawan niya ako ulit...

I am still at my worst Jho. Things have never been the same since we parted ways. I've never been to me, to myself... Para na akong ibang tao. Madalas di ko na kilala sarili ko. I said in disappointment.

I was really expecting that Jho will accept the proposal but to my surprise, she actually rejected it.

No Beatriz, you are still the same Bea that I know. Maybe its just this... pointing out at my heart. Yung ego niyan ang nagho-hold back sa yo. Pero deep down, ikaw pa din si Bea, the sweet, loving and gentle Isabel Beatriz. She added... I better get going, papasok pa ako sa work. Mauna na ako. Paalam niya.

Seriously Jho papasok ka? Tanong ko sa kanya. Why don't you take some rest, wala ka din namang maayos na tulog diba? Pakiusap ko pa.