Jamie *contains suicidal thoughts/actions*
*two years later*
I have no reason to live. I want to die. I pull out three pieces of paper. Then another. I prepare four letters.
Daddy,
Hi. It's Jamie. I love you guys so much. Just know that I'll be watching over you guys. This world is just too harsh. If you checked Twitter anymore you'd know what I mean. I'm just done with everyone telling me to kill myself. I want out of this life.Tell the cast I love them too. And hey, if you want, you don't have to show up to the funeral. It's fine. I don't care. It's not like I'm worth it. In a year or so, you'll forget I ever existed. Trust me. That's what they all say.
I don't want you to be sad. It's fine if you are. This will make you stronger. I know that for a fact. Just whatever happens, if I somehow survive this, please just don't think of me differently. I mean, sure I'll try again. All because I don't wanna live anymore. But that doesn't mean I don't love you any less.
Sincerely,
JamieMama,
Hi. It's Jamie. I love you guys so much. Just know that I'll be watching over you guys. This world is just too harsh. If you checked Twitter anymore you'd know what I mean. I'm just done with everyone telling me to kill myself. I want out of this life.Tell the the boys I love them too. And hey, if you want, you don't have to show up to the funeral. It's fine. I don't care. It's not like I'm worth it. In a year or so, you'll forget I ever existed. Trust me. That's what they all say.
I don't want you to be sad. It's fine if you are. This will make you stronger. I know that for a fact. Just whatever happens, if I somehow survive this, please just don't think of me differently. I mean, sure I'll try again. All because I don't wanna live anymore. But that doesn't mean I don't love you any less.
Love you,
JamieSebastian,
Hi. It's Jamie. I love you guys so much. Just know that I'll be watching over you guys. This world is just too harsh. If you checked Twitter anymore you'd know what I mean. I'm just done with everyone telling me to kill myself. I want out of this life.Take care of Alex for me, yeah? And hey, if you want, you don't have to show up to the funeral. It's fine. I don't care. It's not like I'm worth it. In a year or so, you'll forget I ever existed. Trust me. That's what they all say.
I don't want you to be sad. It's fine if you are. This will make you stronger. I know that for a fact. Just whatever happens, if I somehow survive this, please just don't think of me differently. I mean, sure I'll try again. All because I don't wanna live anymore. But that doesn't mean I don't love you any less.
Love you lots,
JamieJonny,
Hi. It's Jamie. I love you guys so much. Just know that I'll be watching over you guys. This world is just too harsh. If you checked Twitter anymore you'd know what I mean. I'm just done with everyone telling me to kill myself. I want out of this life.Tell the cast I love them too. And hey, if you want, you don't have to show up to the funeral. It's fine. I don't care. It's not like I'm worth it. In a year or so, you'll forget I ever existed. Trust me. That's what they all say.
I don't want you to be sad. It's fine if you are. This will make you stronger. I know that for a fact. Just whatever happens, if I somehow survive this, please just don't think of me differently. I mean, sure I'll try again. All because I don't wanna live anymore. But that doesn't mean I don't love you any less.
Sincerely,
JamieAlex,
Hi buddy. You're too young. You won't remember me. But know that I loved you while I was with you.Love you always,
JamieWith that, I string up a rope and grab a chair. Lin and Vanessa are out with Seb and Alex. I put their letters on the table in the dining room. I stand up on a chair and wrap the rope around my neck. But I can't bring myself to knock the chair over.
So, I get off the chair and grab a handful of my depression meds. As I'm about to take them, I hear a door open. "V, do you know what these letters are?" I hear Lin say.
"No." I hear silence, I swallow two of the pills. Then, I hear heavy footsteps. I swallow the rest of the pills. Lin stands in the doorway as I do.
"Jamie, what the hell did you do?" He asks, more panicked than anything.
"I swallowed like ten of my anxiety pills." I answer and he stares at me, shocked.
"V! WE GOTTA GO! JAMIE TOOK TEN PILLS!"
Lin
I stare at the white wall of the hospital. Vanessa holds my hand. Jamie had passed out before we got to the hospital. I sigh, my leg shaking uncontrollably. "Mr and Mrs Miranda?" Vanessa and I stand. "Jamie has passed away. I'm sorry for your loss."
The End
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