Stories Of My Life

I'm Not A Lier And I'm Not A Victim I'm A Survivor

Many people I'm a lier and it doesn't count 'cause I wasn't raped. I'm one of the 1 6 males you have been sexually assault in the year of 2016. My story begins on June 8th 2017 at the school I attended at the time I start dating a boy let's call him Robert he was a friend of mine he was about 3/4 of an inch shorter than me but quickly got taller. At the time I have already gone through puberty as far as I could so it was level but he was still going through puberty a bit so he was still growing. Anyway the relationship was doomed from the start I admit in this relationship I did love him I did love him for a bit after he hurt me I'm not afraid to say that. About three days after we started dating it was summer and we met up at a local public inside market that day I had my first official kiss. From there I went to meeting him about two miles from my house 'cause boys weren't allowed in my house with out my parents home. But soon he was allowed over and about the third time he came over I had sorta rolled off the bed it has only about a foot off the ground so it didn't hurt Robert sat down next to me while I was sorta laughing at my clumsiness and he stuck his and down my shirt a touched my chest (for those of you that don't know I'm ftm so I have breasts.) I was so shocked I couldn't say anything and it only lasted like 10 seconds and my brother watched him do it after that I told my brother to leave the room I didn't want him to be in that room. Around that same time I had been Skyping him and I was holding my snake Emerys and he said something along the lines of "Wouldn't that be funny if my hand got caught in your shirt as your parents came home." I knew it was of sexual nature and I didn't like it, it was uncomfortable for me. So, on July 16 2017 I went to stay with my aunt for two weeks but it got extended to four and Robert had left to spend time with his dad and if I hadn't gotten my time extended I was meant to get home around the same day he would he'd be home for a few days then he'd leave town again to spend time with his grandma and grandpa. I was so scared to tell him I was staying longer cause I was afraid of how he'd react (you never knew how'd he would react to something.) When I was done I just wanted to hang up the phone but he would relentlessly call and text and I didn't want to deal with that.

August 24 2016

Me and Robert had gone to the house my dad was building and we got hot so we went down into the crawl space. Note this crawl space is considerably bigger than most, I 4' 10'' 1/2 and I can almost freely walk around down there without bending over. At the bottom of like three wooden steps was a long concrete platform 'cause the rest of dirt super lose dirt. Me and Robert hung out down there and he kept sitting behind me and touching my chest and unclipping my bra and stuff. (I'm going to spare details.) After that I slowly started to feel less an less safe around him and by October I broke up with him but my problems weren't over yet he stalked me pretty much at school I reported him 4 times to leave me the hell alone and each time he ignored it I avoided my locker and stopped going to the only after school club I was in finally after so many times of being told to live me alone from like 4 different people not including me he started leaving me alone. I now take medicine to help with nightmares 'cause but the anxiety and fear of what happened I don't function the way I used to I have learned to see the worst in people but I try to ignore it. I try to ignore all the people who tell me I'm wrong or a lier 'cause I don't have physical evidence I've tried to report him but my county police are lazy people so he didn't listen he asked what I wanted to report and if he went to school with him I'm not stupid I know that you need more than that to file a official report. I feel so abandoned by the law I've looked and looked and by law it doesn't matter 'cause he a year younger than me. In Washington state you can be charged with rape 1st 2nd 3rd degree or indecent liberties which is more referred to as child molestation. By law molestation doesn't matter unless the perpetrator/s are 18 or older and victim is preferably under 14 but at least a minor. Many people say someone's a sexual in nature offense victim but the word they should use is survivor. Until next update~Cory