sunflowers | ✔️

// 17

why should i try
when a beautiful person out there
could do so much better than me
i lack talent and skill, to achieve
in making this wonderful thing

my technique is not correct and
my hands weren't made to craft
unlike them, unlike them —
everything they create seem like
a piece of art that i only could wish
to recreate, to recreate —

so answer my thousands of questions
and give me the inexistent reasons
why i should even continue
this disgraceful journey —
i'm bringing shame to the people
i'm greatly honored to call my own

a person of my worth isn't worthy
to be a part of such an amazing community
of god-given, opportunity seekers —
looking to place their mark on this universe
just leave me, just leave me be
do not try to console me for what i say is true

so, mini update. my current mood is very low, and i feel like all my creations are failures and shameful. i'm trying my best to please everyone but my best isn't enough. i'm considering taking a hiatus from my cover shop although i still have requests to do because this lingering feeling in my heart is preventing me from doing any work and actually feeling content with the finale product of my creation. i hate disappointing everyone but i think it's somewhat time to also consider my own welfare (no matter how pointless it is) because so much stress is piling up on me and it suCKS. :((