Regret

CHAPTER 5.

It's Saturday and I finally decided to go out with Monica because Ella will go to Bradford to see Zayn. If Monica wasn't my friend, I would have stayed at home. And here we are walking around the cafe that Liam and his friends are in. Thank God that he doesn't pay attention, in any way, at me so I don't have to worry if he notices me and then be like 'why are you walking back and forth around this cafe'. The truth is that one day he was sitting to the next table of mine and my chair was opposite of his and I was looking at the girl behind him and he went like 'why are you starring at me?'. It was the first time ever that I wasn't starring at him. 

Me and Monica ended up staying at the cafe next to the 'Library'. I never got why this cafe was named 'Library'. What a stupid name. In the 'Library' was Liam so we went to the cafe next to it.  

'It's so much better here, I can tell' I speak.

'I usually hang out at the Library but anyway' she says trying to find the waitress to order.

'What will you get?' I ask her.

'I don't know. I feel like I want to get some coffee.' she answers. 

'Okay'.

She ordered a freddoccino for her and an ice-tea for me. We were talking about so many things and we had a great fun. We met each other much better and we promised that we will go out any time soon. I love her company and I won't leave her. Yes, I love my mother and I don't wanna upset her because she is doing her best to rise me up with a different way and alone, but I need more friend and that is my chance. I always do what she says and by doing this I had lost so many chances to make new friend because she is the one that she doesn't like them. When I was about 15 I met a girl called Sarah and when I showed her to my mother she said that she was okay but when the girl walked away she told me never to see her again because she was smelling like she was smoking, so I did. I never talked to her again and I didn't even tell her the reason. Tell my mother someone that everyone's now smoking.

'See you on Monday at school?' Monica asks me as I am ready to step into my house.

'I won't be there on Monday' I let her know.

'What? Why?' she wonders and walks towards me.

'I am so anxious these days and I need to do a revision for the exams. I need some time.' I explain her and she frowns.

'That's all? It's not for Liam, huh?' What?

'No! I would never leave school for a boy!' I answer on her silly question or suspicion even.

'Okay! I will dye my hair on Tuesday evening, are you coming with me, if you're not with Ella?' she suggests me.

'I would like to come. If I'm not with her, I will come. But I will most probably go out with her friend with Bradford. He comes once a week here and we meet each other' I answer her.

'Fine! Will you come on the Greek lessons on Monday?' Oh God. Will she ever let me go?

'Yes, I will' 

'Great. I got to go. Bye' she kisses me goodbye and leaves.

She is not a bad person but she talks a lot. I still can't trust her because she once was friend with Liam and the inner me warns me to keep a small even distance from her. As for Liam, I have to keep a long-term distance from him. I don't have to talk to him even if he wants to know something about the exams or schoolworks. The bad side of the whole thing is that Liam is in the same class as me while Ella is in the next room from us. 

While I'm looking for a way to forget him I turn on the TV and his favourite film is on. I had never known him but everyone is talking to me about him and they mention his favourite and less favourite things. Telling the truth I don't care because if he wanted me to know he would have told me himself. Declan, is the one that eveytime he sees me the first thing he will tell me is 'Liam is not okay' and my heart sinks and I just can't ignore it. I always try to ask in a way that I will not show any feeling towards Liam and I think I manage it.

As I mention Declan on my thoughts he texts me 'how are you'. I just don't feel like I want to talk to him but if I don't, he will be starting telling me that I want Liam and I avoid talking to him in order not to be noticed. Perfect.

'Not so fine' I text him back.

DECLAN'S POV.

'Not so fine' she texts me back.

Liam made me text Megan Evans. He claims that he doesn't like her but I know, very well, that he does. He didn't tell us that he doesn't like her but he just said that she is not so bad looking.

'I texted her' I let him know.

'Okay. Did she answer?' he asks me.

'She did' I answer him.

'What did she say?' He question. He doesn't care, after all.

'She is not so fine. And she didn't even ask me back! What a sassy girl' 

'You?' she asks.

'Oh. She finally asked!' I tell Liam.

'Say 'fine' and ask her what's going on' 

I just don't know why can't he do it alone. It's not so bad to make fun of a girl. He is making fun of his girlfriend and he likes it. He only wants her because she's the biggest slut ever existed. She has been fucked by the boys from all over Lancaster. 

'Fine, thanks for asking! What happened?' I do as Liam told me.

'I am anxious for the exams and I am not going at school on Monday because I need to study' Wow. If she is the one that he likes instead of Grace, he is so stupid.

'To let you know, Payno, she is anxious for the exams and she won't be at school on Monday because she needs to study. Oh, and stop chasing after her if you don't care' I plea.

'Okay, thank you man. But remember, when something is done, it's done' he says leaving a hint behind of what he said. Strange.

END OF DECLAN'S POV.

'Mother' I call her from upstairs.

Wtf? Why isn't already here.

'Mother' I call her again.

'What is it sweety' she bursts into the room.

'I won't be at school on Monday because I need to do a revision for the exams because I am too anxious. Oh, and Ella, Zayn and Monica will be on Tuesday here at our house and before they come here I will go at the hairdresser with Monica to dye her hair' I finally finish my long-term announcement. 

'How many time have I told you not to hang out with Monica?' she says. Not again.

'Mother, I can do whatever I want. What is wrong with her?' I aske her.

'I just don't wanna you to be with kids like her. Look at her hair' she wave her hands.

I explain her some things about Monica and she finally seems to like her. I hope she will one day because Monica will be my new friend from now on. Monica, Ella and Zayn.

Songs I heard while writing this:

Addicted To You- Avicii

Demons-Imagine Dragons

Dum Dee Dum-Keys N' Krates

I Don't Wanna Be In Love-Good Charlotte

The Reason-Hoobastank

Stop And Stare-One Republic

Every You And Every Me-Pacebo

Meds-Placebo

Pure Morning-Placebo

Criminal-Britney Spears

Call Me When You're Sober-Evanescence