Regret

CHAPTER 13.

Today the guys are back but I will stay in because Monica and Ella will be too tired to go out for a walk right after their arrival. I wish I could go and pick them from school so I can see Liam for the first time after three days, but it's better to stay here. Being away from Liam for a little while didn't hurt me. It's me, here, better than I have never been. He told anyone that I am so old-fashioned because I didn't go to the school trip and if I were there I wouldn't even drink anything because I am so behind the ages and all I wanna do is running here and there and drink orange juice when I am super thirsty after the long time running. He pretended to be my friend. I couldn't expect nothing more than this. It was all that I expected him to react after a night out with Declan. Yes. He did learn about me and Declan. Maybe Declan told him.

I lie on my bed and put my laptop on my lap so I can find a movie to watch in order to take him off of my mind. I search for a while what new movie, the standard site I am on everyday, has but I find nothing so I end up to the one and only, Cruel Intentions 1. It's really my favourite film ever. Especially when Sebastian has the chance to make the bet that has set with Kathryn but finally says to Annette that he can't do it. He had real feelings for her but he hurt her because of Kathryn. She wanted to get on his mind in order to be so confused and end up with her instead of Annette. Actually, he never ended up with noone of them because he died because of this stupid bet.

'You should stop watching this, you drama queen' I hear Monica's voice next to me. What's going on here?

'How did you get in?' I ask her and I hug her at the same time. It's really annoying when someone breaks into my house without even telling me or at least knocking the front door.

'So, someone's seems not to be happy for seeing me' she says trying to be seem offended but she fails.

'That wasn't what I meant. I thought you would stay at home as it is your first hour down here and you need some rest. I don't know!' I explain.

'Oh. I see, but I have so many things to tell you.' oh.

She starts telling me about everything that has happened at the school trip. Some things I wish I never heard them because they really hurt my feeling, especially when she mentioned that Liam had sex with Lilian. I really hate this bitch and I never thought that she would do it with Liam. I never really liked her. She was so innocent and suddenly a guy called Liam told her a story, a very beautiful story and she fucking bought it. I don't feel sorry for her. Not at all.

Also, Declan fought with Liam because of me. Actually, because Declan went out with me. I don't know why Liam was so mad by this. Nobody knows. When the rest of the children saw them fighting like this they had the same question as me 'why he got so mad by this?'. I really need to know and I will ask him. It has to do with me. 

'But he likes the way you dress the last few days' she adds.

'I couldn't care less' I inform her.

'I don't believe you, sweatheart' she is trying to piss me out.

'Monica! I said I don't care. You buy it or not, I don't care' I try to convince her and myself.

'You still care about his opinion for you' she insists. Fuck.

'No?!' okay yes. Why everyone needs to know this?

'Care to make a wager?' What?

'Of course. Ha!'

We are still here gossiping on everything and everyone. Ella prefered to see Zayn instead of me. It starts being so tiring because I am in the city of Lancaster, I live some feet away from her house and she didn't came across my house and went to Bradford. Oh, how sweet.

The bell from the front door downstairs rings and I rush to the door to answer. As I open the door, I see Niall standing outside and all I can think is that someone has to be kidding me. All I want, right now, is to send him back to Bradford.

'You need something?' I ask him as politely as I can.

'Zayn forgot his sunglasses here yesterday and he told me to pick it up as he won't be in Lancaster today' he explains.

Fuck. Why do I always have to be so rude? He only needed Zayn's sunglasses and all I thought he wanted was to piss me off. I am such a selfish to think that everyone has the nerves to spend their free time pissing me off. Damn you, Megan.

I am upstairs looking for the sunglasses but I don't know where is it so I go downstairs again and tell Niall to come in so he won't be standing outside because it is so rude of me. I left him with Monica. I guess he knows about Monica and Zayn. They will probably have a topic to talk about until I find the sunglasses.

I walk into my mother's room and the moment I step into her room I see the sunglasses on her bedside. What's going on with her? What are they even Zayn's sunglasses are doing in her room on this bedside that I don't have to know what is has in it? I take them and step out of this room before I go back to this bedside and break it so I can see what the hell it is.

'Here it is' I tell him and hand him the sunglasses.

'Thank you' he just says and heads to the door.

'Say hi to Zayn from me' 

'You can call him anytime, you know, to tell him 'Hi'' he fires back. Damn.

'You can be less rude if you don't mind at least when you are in my house' 

'Sorry! Just have to go. I will tell him. Bye girls' he waves us goodbye and leaves.

Why does he always have to be such a dickhead. He gets on my nerves so fucking much. He reminds me of Liam and all I wanna do right now is to be locked in my room and never find a way out. I wanna be alone so I tell Monica to go in order to sleep for a while because I have a terrible headache. I apologise her one thousand times for my behaviour and the way I told her to go. She says that she understands and that she will have a little chat with Niall to sort some things out. Sometimes I just can't thank her enough. She is so amazing. So understanding.

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