Regret

CHAPTER 6.

'As you know, this year is the last year that you are studying at this school. So, we decided it would be an amazing chance for all of us to go an excursion to Ireland for 3 days. Tell your parents and let us know if they want or not'  Oh, wait. Mr Adams just announced us a 3-days-excursion to Ireland?

I raise my hand so I can ask something about the excursion. I have never been to Ireland. It would be an unforgettable experience. My mother would never take me to a place like this. The only thing she wants is me having good marks and nothing else!

'Mrs Evans?' Mr. Adams says. He gaves me the permission to speak, I guess.

'When will we go?' I finally ask.

'We don't know yet. Maybe on January. And, it actually depends on how many children will come' He answers. Great. There is a chance that we won't be able to go!

I say nothing and just stay speechless trying to find a way to bring it up to my mother. She will say 'no' for sure but I will fight for it. It would be a big chance for me to come closer with the excursion children. They all are my friends but we are not going out or talk to each other a lot. Maybe this excursion to Ireland can make me be more sociable towards to many of the people I couldn't even say a 'Hello' because I was afraid of them!

I bet Liam will go for sure. He is rich and he has the money to afford these kind of things. He is able to come to school wearing a sweater which costs about 200 pounds and make fun of the other children whose their sweater costs 20 pounds. I am not like him. He has a father and a mother working every day. I only have my mother that she is so close to be fired! How nice of him to make fun of me behind my back and then come to me and be like 'Hi' or to talk with me about the exams. Rude people. 

The bell finally rings and I go out of class. In a moment, I thought that it would never ring but it was in my mind because I was so bored as fuck. I sit on the balcony, the place I always sit no matter what. 

'Zayn will come when we finish school today' Ella informs me.

'It's already Tuesday?' I ask. I know it's Tuesday but it's all I can say.

'Yes! He will be here at 2' She tells me.

'Can't wait to see him' I matter.

I watch the boys playing football with a bottle of water instead of a ball. I am so thankful that Monica didn't ask him who is Zayn. She will meet him at the evening, anyway. I love the fact that our company gets bigger everytime we meet a new person. I just can't be alone. It's the worst feeling ever. Before I meet Zayn and Monica, when Ella couldn't go out I was staying at home because I had noone to go out with and I was so bored.

As I stare the bottle of water that the boys keep kicking, for a moment one of them throws it on me but the last seconds before it hits me Liam takes it aways. Telling the truth, I was so sure that he would let it hit me again and again.

'Are you fucking crazy?' Liam shouts at his friend. 

'I'm sorry man. My bad' he apologies.

'You could have hit her' he keeps shouting. Is it me or he defends me? 

'I said I am sorry' his friend is now annoyed.

I still can't get what's going on here. They are fighting for me? They don't wanna take the blame that's why they are doing it.

'Are you okay?' he asks me minutes later.

'Yeah! It didn't hit me' I confirm.

'Good! I saved you' Liam says proudly.

'It was a big step' I say sarcastically.

He laughs and says nothing. He goes back to his company and sits next to Declan. Liam tells him something and they both starring at me. I am so mad right now that I take Monica by her hand and head to the stairs so we can go downstairs. I didn't take Ella because what I want to ask her to do she wouldn't do it. I know her really well to ask her something like this.