Regret

CHAPTER 10.

DAY TWO.

It's me, again.

I was sitting on the balcony of my school and I was flipping the tap of my bottle by squeezing the bottle. Me and Ella found it so funny and amusing so we decided to to it all the time during the break. I left my seat for a moment to catch the tap of the bottle that has been thrown over the stairs and when I came back, Liam was about to take my sit so I rushed over him and pushed him away so I can sit. He didn't say anything and he just took a look at me and then he started talking with the rest of the girls in his company excpet for me and Ella. Monica wasn't there today.

After one or two minutes I flipped the tap of the bottle again and it was about to land on his face but a light wind blew and it took it away. I was lucky enough, I think because it would be my last day on Earth if the tap had hit him. When I stood up and rushed over the class to catch the tap, Liam sat on my place and then I didn't have anywhere else to sit. Great. 

I decided againt on telling him to sit the fuck up and I stood on my feet for about 10 minutes. The bell rang and Liam was still sitting on my place whereas it was my schoolbag behind him but he didn't move even an intch to make it easier in order to grab my bag. I took a big decision and before I HUG HIM I took a deep breathe and did it. He didn't react at all. He stayed and it was something I was expected.

I finally grabbed my schoolbag and went downstairs to the art lab because I had an art class.

'Have you already started studying for the exams?' Ella asks me. It's in two months, for God's sake.

'No! It's in two months. We have so many days ahead' I answer her.

'That's what I was thinking' Why she seems to be so annoying? I wanna sometime alone without talking to anyone. Can I have some privacy?

We finally went into the theater of our school because our art teacher was responsible for a show that some kids from our school was about to give in one week. She made al the dresses herself and the headmistress of the school who she is an actor at the same time, found the scenario. It was really good. I enjoyed watching it. The music and the movements were all so nice. They all did an amazing work.

The next hour we had P.E. Well, I hadn't the best hour of my life because he and his friends bullied a girl from my class because they don't like her. It wasn't so nice of them because she felt so embarrassed that she laughed instead of being or looking sad. She wore her best smile and took it as a joke. What a person. Eveyone's telling me that if I meet him much better, I will be so amazed by his kindness and his nice behaviour.

When I got home, I saw my mother watching TV. She turned her head to have a look on me and then she focused on the TV without saying a word. Great. God only know what happened.

'Megan.' she talks.

'What?' 

'I was told by your aunt about the excursion and it's a 'no'. I don't wanna talk about it more because I listened so many things to be convinced to let you go' she says and my heart breaks. Oh, no.

Why this must be happening? Are you kidding me? Why? I burst into crying and I noticed my lack of breathing so I tried to clam the fuck down because I was so sure that I'm gonna die crying. I pulled my phone out of my schoolbag and I texted Zayn, Megan and Monica to tell them that I am not going to the excursion. As for Declan.. I will tell him on Sunday. Why I have to go out with that beast? I know that everyone's making fool of me. Why do I keep believing that something's gonna change. Anything ain't gonna change.

Zayn suggested me, him to come to Lancaster to hang out but I told him that I couldn't go out today because I won't be able to go out on Sunday. It gets on my nerves when I have to arrange the days that I'm going to go out. I wanna go out whenever I feel like it. 

I have to go to my personal hairdresser to do a new haircut. I have necer plugged my eyebrows so it's time to do it, and I will do it all this evening. After, I will go for shopping alone or with Monica because Ella will be in Bradford. Damn Bradford, what is wrong with you? Why Zayn has to live there? There is a town called Lancaster whereas he could stay and be with us whenever he wanted. Next week I heard that he will come with Niall here. Wow. My 'best' friend ever ha!

...

...SUNDAY...

I am so nervous for meeting Declan and I don't even know why! What if he records me while talking or  what if this 'date' is based on a lie? Omg. I wanna go back time and tell him that I can't and I can't but I wish I could somehow. I don't wanna go.

I'm wearing my red jeans, a colour I have never ever wore before, and my black tank top, a blouse that I never imagined myself wearing this because it leaves so many things on other's imagination. With my black original Vans I'm done with dressing. I do my hair a fishtail and put on a little make up, just a little eye pencil, some mascara, powder and a light red lipstick and I'm done with my hair and make up.

When I am downstairs, just in time the bell rings. I take my phone, my money and keys and going out to see Declan waiting for me on the doorstep with a strange expression on his face!

'Hey' I say nervously havinh anything else to say.

'Um, hey' he smiles.

'Where are we going?' I ask him.

'Wanna go to the Library Cafe?' he's trying to find a place for us to go.

'I have no problem' I response.

'You look so nice today. You have changed a lot since Friday' He noticed! 

'Hah thank you' 

He kept complimenting me for a few more minutes and all I had to say was so many thank you's. He also, promised me that Liam knows nothing about this meeting and if he gets to know it, he will be so mad but he doesn't know the reason. Liam, sometimes make me wonder what is going wrong with him. He just can't be mad at someone with no reason.

We finally went to the Backstreet Cafe and we talked about so many things. Befere I go out with him I was so sure that there wasn't any common thing to talk with him. He asks a lot of things and I hasitate to answer but I relax when he tells me that I don't have to answer all of the things he asks. Declan, aslo, admits that he can be very indiscreet when he is nervous and has nothing else to talk about or comment.

After two hours he takes me back at home and promises me that he had a nice night tonight and that I was so great company and regrets all the bad things he had said about me. I don't know if I want to forgive him because the only one I wanna forgive for eternity, it's Liam. If a betrayal is stronger than the way we love each other then we didn't love each other as much as we claimed.

 [ I hope I can get some readers to read this but nothing can happen from the very beginning. Every beginning it's a very difficult topic to deal with. Thank you, to the one or two who have read it. Huge amount of people, huh? :P Erm, whatever, that's all from me! 1ddreamerrxx xxox]