Regret

CHAPTER 7.

I am sitting on my veranda waiting for the guys. It's 17:30 and they are not here. I told them to be here at 17:00. When I grab my phone to call Ella, I see them appearing from the narrow street near the bakery which is opposite my house. I put it back into my pocket and I walk towards them.

'Hello' Zays says first. Wow, he talked to me.

'Erm, hi' I hasitantly say.

'Something's wrong?' he asks. Monica and Ella look at each other and say that they will go for a walk because Monica has a problem to solve. 

'Erm, no, I guess.' I tell Zayn.

'Sorry, I didn't talk to you earlier but Ella texted me about what happened between you and Liam. She told me that you weren't feeling so well.' He defends himself before I ask him why he turned his back to me.

'Oh, okay. I wasn't in a mood to talk, anyway' I say politely.

'I see. Well, where are the girls, anyway?' he asks with a playful mood.

'Wait, I'm gonna call them' I say and I grab my phone and type Monica's number.

After 10 minutes we are all in my room discussing about everything. I told Zayn everything of what happened today in details. His response on all of this was that Liam might has feelings for me but it's something really impossible. He has a girlfriend. I also, explained to Monica everything about the Becca girl. 

Becca was in love with him since she met him at the primary school. He never liked her back and she was so disappointed. When I first came at the high school, I was alone and I didn't know anyone. She was the one that came over me and told me if I want to be in her company. I accepted her invitation and she trusted me about everything. Becca liked him so badly that one time she was so desparate that she decided to spread some rumours. She told everyone that she committed suicide but her mother rushed into the bathroom and saved her.  Psychotic. After this I decided not to talk to her ever again and then Ella found me.

'That girl is so psychotic' Zayn comments.

'I have no words' Monica remains speechless.

'What we're gonna do?' she asks. Oh, come on now, Monica.

'Nothing! Let's forget her. We have much better issues to talk about' I say. I have no idea of what we can talk about right now.

'Like?' Ella asked.

'Excursion' It's the first thing that came up to my mind.

'Oh, yeah! Will you go? I will go for sure! My mother said 'yes'' Monica says.

'My mother said 'yes' too' Ella says.

'And what about you?' Zayn questions me.

'I don't know but my mother will say 'yes', I guess' I confirm my thoughts.

Monica is a girl which gets so many 'yes's' from her mother that's why she is like this. She has purple hair, she is comfortable, loud, out-going etc. I love the way she is and I want to be like her. I will try my best to catch Liam's eye. Zayn claims that Liam likes me but I don't think so. When he likes someone he shows it. He can't hide it. I can see it in his eyes and I'm not even his friend to be able to read his expressions.

'Will Liam be at the excursion?' Zayn asks.

'Yes! He said that he will be there for sure. He is not missing it!' Monica answers instead of me. Well, I am annoyed now.

'So, you need to go for sure, Megan' He says starring at me. Why I feel so uncomfortable?

'I will talk about the excursion issue with my mother. It's not up to me if I go or not. So, it's better to make plans when I know that I will go for sure.' I say in an annoyed mood.

They all look at each other and stay silent. Well, I didn't mean to cause this atmosphere but the whole thing made me wanna lock myself in a room and throw the key away. So, in order to make things feel better, I suggest them to go downstairs to watch a horror film while my mother is in Doncaster for some work. They say 'yes' and we all go downstairs. I let Zayn and Monica at my DVD case to find a horror film [is all what I have] and me and Ella we go in the kitchen to make some pop-corn. Film without pop-corn or something to eat and drink, it's not a film. It's boring in other words!

We ended up watching 'The Occupants'. It's not that scary but I was a bit scared, I can tell. Especially, when the woman was looking for where the noice did it come from, under her bed and when she turned her head up she saw her husband sleepwalking. It was the scariest scene in all of the film. As for Ella and Monica, they were screaming during the whole film. Me! I was scared in some scenes. Not in every scene. Zayn wasn't scared at all. He was only laughing at our reactions. How cute.

'We can do it some time, again!' Ella suggests.

'Yes! I have not problem' I say and I grab some pop corn and eat them.

'But not in your house again!' Zayn pops up in the conversation between me and Ella.

'Why not?' I ask.

'Look. My idea is: Everytime we are about to go in a house to spend our day, it's not so nice to hang out in one's house for so many reasons. So, the next time you can come to Bradford. I can put you up' he says. Sounds good.

'Sounds nice' I admit.

'It is nice, Megan. Your mother can't tolerate the fact that you have friends in here, remember?' Monica reminds me. Fuck.

'Is that true Megan Evans? Zayn asks pretending to be offened.

'Only a little' I say and he bursts into laughter.

I hate when Monica tells my secrets aloud. Okay, Zayn knows it too but it's not so nice of me to say that my mother doesn't like them. Ella seems to be annoyed by this and I look at her trying to say to her to stay quiet. She still doesn't like Monica. But she doesn't hate her either. Monica, of course, trusts me the most. Zayn trusts me too. He hasitates a lot to let you know what he is thinking but the problem is not me. Ella has told me that his character is like this. He's even doing this to his best friend, Niall.

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'Did you see Declan around?' I hear a voice behind me. Is that Liam?

I turn back and face him. I think I heard wrong. There is no fucking way.

'What?' I gulp.

'Did you see Declan?' Liam asks again.

I am so preoccupied that I didn't notice the question again. He will fight me any time soon and he will be right this time.

'I didn't hear you, sorry. Say it again' I say quietly. He's rolling his eyes and smiles.

'I said: Did you see Declan?' I finally heard what he questioned.

'Well, yes. He left 5 minutes ago.' I inform him.

'Oh, okay.' he says and grabs his iphone.

'Why are you outside?' he asks me. What? He wants to talk to me? 

'We had a test' I tell him.

'On which subject?' he keeps asking. What a curious person.

'History.' 

'Okay' he says and sits up from the bench and goes downstairs.

This conversation was so cute to me even though it wasn't something big. We could have talked about more things but his inquest was so annoying that I wantes to slap him. Really.