Regret

CHAPTER 14

There are moments that you just can't find a way out of your own thoughts. Having people gossiping you in whatever you do is not the easiest thing in the world though. You are like 'I don't go to clubs' and they start saying that you are a nerd because you are cancelling the club thing to study novels or some notes from your schoolworks. And when you start doing the things that the most children on your age do they say that it's not your thing and that you better be back to your old self and stop trying to impress because it's a complete failure. 

Megan's POV

I hear the front door open and I wish deep inside of me that my mother won't come in my room because I am so tired from school and all I want right now is fall asleep and never wake up in this cruel world. I stand up from my comfortable bed and head to the door to lock it.

I haven't gone anywhere else the last few days. My routine is like school-home-school. After what happened on that school trip brought me down and I can't stand up. Liam came over to my home one or two days before the school trip and trusted me and I thought  we developed a friendly relationship but he is the same cold person as the one I met some months ago.

I just can't do anything for it right now. I am so in love with him that I can forgive him so fast. If I were with him I would forgave him in whatever he would do to me, even if he'd cheated me. It would be a chance for me to be with him so why I have to drop it if I get it?

I finally stand up in order to go downstair to eat somthing because I was locked in a room almost all day. When I go into the kitchen I see on the table some papers. My curiosity was so high and I cought myself having the papers on my hands reading the headline."Adoption Paper". Someone has to be kidding me. What is wrong here?

"What are even doing with these papers on your hands, Megan Rose Evans?" I hear my mother's voice just right behind me. 

"What is this?" I ask and my hands are shaking.

"It's none of your business" She fires and grab the papers from my hands.

But some people are claiming that they care about you and they are trying to prove it, you eat the story and then you think that everything is okay while strange things are happening behind your back. Only God knows and judges but sometimes, just sometimes exept from the God everyone knows what's going wrong but anyone doesn't give a damn if you want to know or if you don't want to know. Secrets are everywhere, unfortunately but at least you have your friends that are next to you supporting you in everything you do. Very often, the friends are the ones that they hit you like a hammer without even care if you hurt or not.

I give her a strange look without having something to say and rush out of the house. I don't wanna be near her. This woman is hiding something from me and I don't even know what.

I am outside Ella's home and I knock at the door. After a few seconds her little brother answers the door and tells me that she has gone with Monica and that they might be in Bradford. Great. When you need someone, they always have something to do and when you wanna be alone, you have everyone upon your head trying to convince you to go out to see some people to feel better.

I call Ella one or two times but she doesn't answer my calls. The only person that came up to my mind was Liam. I didn't even overthink it and left Ella's house in order to find him. I am so determined to find him and tell him all about my feels and I will do whatever it takes to be with him. On my way to his home I started for awhile to overthink the situation and that it's early enough to stop what I am about to do but I decide against it and keep doing what I want all this time along.