Regret

CHAPTER 4.

I'm on my way to my home and I am thinking of what just happened today. Thank God, it's Friday today and I don't have to do my homework for tomorrow. I'm planning not to go to school on Monday because I am so bored and anxious. I still don't feel very well. I also won't go out on Sutarday and only God knows why. I just don't feel I want to go out. I prefer to stay in home on my laptop reading stories online or watch a movie or chat with some friends on Facebook. 

I am sure that Liam will go on this club thing that he always goes. I only go there because I know that I will see him. He leaves at 5 a.m and calles me names because I leave at 3. Nice. Why should I leave so late? I don't want anyone think that I don't have any accomondation to stay in. Yes, I like being in a club drinking and dancing but not until the sun goes out. I am only 17. What I'm gonna do when I grow up? 

I'm finally at home and I have to study for my Greek lessons. I go to a private school and I take Greek lessons 5 hours a week. Hopefully, I am at a level that I can easily communicate with a Greek person. I love this language but it's a bit difficult. In the beginning, it was easy because we were learning small words and sentences but now it's not only this. We need to know the grammar really well in order to make good looking essays with no mistakes.

'Meggie, someone wants to see you' my mother's comes in with a worried expression on her face. Who the hell is it and she's like this?

'Who is it, mother?' I ask her.

'A girl with purple hair. I told you so many times not to hang out with people like her. This city is full of people like her. Stop hanging out with her and we will start travel all the way from here to Manchester, twice a week,to your old neighbourhood so you can see your real friends' she says trying not to lose her temper.

'Mother!' I shout. 'Just stop it, okay? Just stop telling me what I should do. I am old enough to know what is good and what is it bad for me' I say. 'Tell her come upstairs' I add.

'We will talk about this later' she says and leaves the room. Thank God.

First of all, what this purple haired girl is doing right here? I don't even know her name and I have never told her where my house is. I wonder how she found out.

'You have problems with your mother?' I hear her saying. Where did it come from?

'Just a little problem, you know' I say politely.

'Oh, I see' she says. She keeps talking to me without even introduce herself.

'Can I ask you something?' I finally say. I just wanna know. An unknown person from school is sitting right in front of me with a schoolbag and  trying to get me to trust her.

'Sure' she confirms.

'What's your name and where did you find my home?' 

'Oh! I thought you knew about my name. Well, my name is Monica. As for your house, I just saw you one day getting in here and asked Ella and she confirmed where is it.' she explains. Will I sound rude if I ask her what is she doing here?

'Megan! Nice to meet you' I say smiling.

'I knew!' she pokes me. Wow!

'So, what are you doing here? I mean, I have Greek lessons in 1 hour' I tell her.

'I know right! I had 6-7 today but I learnt that you have 5-6 and I changed it' she explains. What?

'Are you watching me, anyway?' I ask before I can stop myself. Fuck.

'Haha. No?! I just wanna be your friend!' she says.

'You could have asked me and not  do all these things you did to be around me!' I inform her.

'You wouldn't have accepted me' she admits. 

Oh.

'And why's that?' I wonder.

Some days ago she told me that nobody wants her because she has purple hair. It's clearly not a reason to avoid a person. My mother doesn't like her for the same damn reason but I don't even care what she thinks. I always fo what she wants and I never have an opinion in anything which clearly means that Monica will be a friend of mine. Don't forget that she once was in the company of the most popular guys in Lancaster.

She had her hair brown and when she dyed it purple they kicked her out of the company. Wow. They do drugs and the thing that they didn't like was Monica's purple hair. What people are they? Why they exist? What they prentend to be? I wonder all these 3 years I am at the same school as them why they haven't been kicked out of here. It's one of the best schools in Lancaster and they keep making a really bad fame.

I wave goodbye to my mother and I leave with Monica and we head to the Greek private school. I hope it won't be so boring as the other times. I sometimes think that I don't need it but my plans for when I finish school is to study on Greece so I need this degree. It means so much to me and I wouldn't ruin any part of my dream before it even starts. It's also my father's dream to success in my life and I wish he was alive not to give me a piece of advice because I need it right now.

Songs I heard while writing this:

Someone Else-Miley Cyrus

Maybe You're Right-Miley Cyrus

Drive-Miley Cyrus

All Too Well-Taylor Swift

Skinny Love-Birdy

Automatic-Tokio Hotel

Bittersweet Symphony-The Verve

Applause-Lady Gaga