Regret

CHAPTER 8.

Today, I have nothing to do. I came back from school and I studied so I am free all the evening. I choose to stay in instead of going out because the last few days I am a lot outside. Zayn is back in Bradford and I miss him, I can tell. I only know him about 2 or 3 weeks but we have stuck together since the very first day. He is a nice guy and thank God that we are talking on the phone.

I turn on the TV and my favourite show is on. I haven't seen it for so long time because I was too busy. While I was watching TV, I heard a knock on the door. I ignored it in the beginning because my mother is tiding the rooms upstairs and I thought that the knock came from upstairs, so I kept watching TV, but seconds later, I heard the knock on the door again. I decided to answer to see who is it. When I reach the door and open it, I see Liam standing on my door step. I'm in shock right now!

'What are you doing here?' It's the first thing that came up in my mind to ask.

'I just wanted to talk to you' He says and takes a step towards me.

'I can't talk to you right now. You can tell me tomorrow at school!' I tell him trying not make him angry.

'I won't be at school tomorrow' He insists. Oh, God. Why can't he always be like this?

'Oh, okay. Wait a minute' I tell him and go inside to turn off the TV and tell my mother that I will be outside with a friend from school. When I step out of my home I see him sitting on the stairs of my veranda.

'So?' I question him. He looks up at me and back at the ground.

'Well, I broke up with Grace!' He tells me. What? Omg. Is he kidding me right now?

'Why I supposed to care about this?' I try not to be that easy. I'm sure as hell that he knows that I like him for 14 months. 

'Ha! Nice question! Why?' He kicks a small stone and looks up at me with a sad smile on his face.

'Why was I your first choice? Because I am sure that you haven't told anyone about this' I try not to be rude but I can't. 

'Because you have helped me a lot through the years and I wasn't aware of it and lately I learnt some things that made me change my mind. Anyway, I am asking you right now to help me because I really need it' My heart sinks but a part of me tell me that it's a part of a joke and I'm really not laughing right now. I can't have a crying Liam opposite me. It hurts me.

'Okay. Tell me, what's going on?' I'm starting with the most common question in order to figure things out.

'She never loved me, Megan. She was a bitch. She was cheating on me every single day and at the end of the day she was calling me and was telling me that I am the best boyfriend she has ever had.' I knew it! I love him so much and I can't see him like this because of a bitch.

'I knew what she was doing' Is all I have to say. 

'You did?' He asks me confused.

'Yes, actually.' I confirm.

'And why didn't you tell me?' He says and dismisses a call from her.

'It wasn't even my buisness, Liam.' Why am I so annoyed by him?

'You're right! I like someone else, anyway' He confirms my thoughts. It's Liam Payne. It would be so strange if he stayed without a girlfriend.

'Just move on and don't give a damn about her. She isn't worth it' I advice him.

'That's what I will do. Thanks for hearing me' he says and gives me a hug. This is too much. I just can't. 

When he is about to go I ask him what he learnt about me and made him mind change.

'The whole thing about Becca made me see the things in a different way. I just really can't explain it. I hope you got what I mean.' His answer was the most difficult answer to understand, ever.

I went back in home and I was like I saw a ghost minutes ago. My mother, who was cooking saw me rushing the stairs to reach my bedroom, left whatever she was doing and came into my room. She asked me what happened and I really didn't want to talk to her right now. The last thing I need right now is to fight her. This thing must finish someday because I can't bear it. 

I called Ella and told her that I finally wanted to sign up to the gym. She told some days before but I didn't want because Liam would be there but I really don't care right now. I wanna be more sociable. Also, I wanna tell her what just happened. I have no the courage even to think about it. It's like I'm dreaming. The whole thing sounds a bit dramatic but Liam doesn't like girls like me but he asked for my advice.

'But how?' Ella asks when I finish telling her what happened.

'I just don't know' I really don't know.

We kept doingsome exercise for 1 or 2 hours and then we left gym. It's a really tiring activity. I wonder how some girls are doing this every day. Actually, they're not the same. I have never gone out of my house to do any activity because my mother was telling me that the only thing that matters the most is the school. In my life I can't go ahead if I know how to swim or do the treadmill. That's what my mum thinks.

I have so many plans for my future and my mother tries her best to make my plans done. On my opinion, she will be the one to blame when everything will be ruined. She is so deep in it that I sometimes think that she is doing it only to prove to her friends that she has a perfect daughter and that she is so poud of me. Omg, what people are they? Why do they exist in this world?'

As I lay on my bed I decide to call Zayn to tell him what happened. I won't tell to Monica because Ella is going to tell her, anyway. I wait some seconds on the line for Zayn to answer. When line is on, I hear a voice that it's not even Zayn's. What?

'Who is it?' I say on the other line.

'Erm, it's Niall! Who are you?' The truth is that I wasn't expected a response.

'Oh! It's Megan. A friend of Zayn. Why are you on his phone?' Why I ask so many things? 

'Slow down, girl. Don't be so rude. And, to answer to your question, Zayn went to the kiosk and left his phone at home.' Excuse me?

'The one to be rude is you Mr.Niall. Nice to meet you and have a nice day.' I say and when I am about to end the call he talks again.

'Okay. It wasn't a nice start, I guess.' he admits.

'It wasn't' I say back.

'Erm, I have to go. I will tell Zayn that you called' thank God.

'Okay, thank you.' I thank him and I end the call before he speaks again.That supposed to be Liam number 2 or something like this?

Songs I heard whilie writing this:

Apologise-One Republic

Boulevard Of Broken Dream-Green Day

Viva La Vida-Coldplay

Fix You-Coldplay

Chasing Cars-Snow Patrol

My Life Would Suck Without You-Kelly Clarckson

You Belong With Me-Taylor Swift

Want You Back-Cher Lloyd

Heart Attack-Demi Lovato

 (Sorry, if it's not perfect. I try my best. Also, my english are so bad and I do many mistakes but I don't pay a lot attention on it because not so many people are going to read this. I'm 100% sure that there are so many fanfics that are much better than mine. And, I will say it for one more time that it won't be a dirty one. Hope you like it, whoever reads it, and let me know what you think xxox)