Regret

CHAPTER 11.

All the people who are about to go to the excursion is outside of the school and are waiting for the bus to take them to the airport so they can fly to Ireland. I feel so jealous and I didn't want to go there but it would be so rude of me not to say goodbye to Monica and Ella. I would also like to sat goodbye to Liam too but he won't let me, for sure. 

The fact that he trusted me and told me about what happened between him and Grace doesn't mean that he is my friend or that is going to happen something between me and him. He wants anyone else anyway. I have no chances to be with him. And the most hurtful thing is that now I notice him being so happy that he is going to Ireland and I wonder what alla his plans are about. 

He likes drinking and partying a lot so I guess all he is about to do there is drinking and partying only. If anything more happens and I'm not there I'm gonna die, really. I'm not even his friend or girlfriend and I want him to let me know what he is going to do like he will come over me and be like 'I won't do anything you won't like, I promise'. Like, who am I to make him promise? 

As the girls step into the bus, I pull my phone out from my back pocket of my jeans to text them. While I'm texting them I feel someone standing behind me. I turn around to see who is it and I see Liam.

'You ain't gonna say goodbye to me?' He speaks. A small smile is placed on his lips.

'I thought you wouldn't let me even touch you?!' I say not sure if what I'm saying is a question or just a thought being said out loud.

'Just conlusions!' He rolls his eyes and he pushes me aside to make his way to the bus.

'Bye!' I shout him.

'Only this?' 

What?

'What should I do, then?' I ask him sarcastically.

'Hug me, maybe?' he suggests. OMG.

'Okay' I tell him and I walk over to him and give him a tight hug.

'That was so nice' he laughs and I do the same.

After the hug he stepped into the bus because the whole excursion teens were waiting for him to end the small talk he was having with me. God only knows what everyone was thinking about when they saw him with me. But I really don't care. He didn't even comment my change. That hurts so much. He has never seen me with a light pink pair of jeans and a white strapless short t-shirt with my black new original Vans.

It's the first time ever that I am wearing original brands. I have never worn something like this that's why he never had talked to me. It's unfair that I had to change in order to be at least his friend or whatever we are. We might or might not be friends but I go out with Declan. I wonder, did he know about our 'date'?

Decla doesn't like me for sure. He just wants to be his friend and be more popular than this. That's his plan. To have many friends in order to be more and more popular. Liam is not like this. Yes, he wants to be more popular but he is not playing these dirty games.

'What was all this about outside the bus?' Monica texts me. Cool. Explainations and only right now.

'He just asked me if I could hug him goodbye' I honestly text her back.

'How? And you did it!' He is so amazed. It gets on my nerves because she thought that I was so silly and my only answer would be 'go to hell'. I have changed. Can somebody hear me saying this?

'I just did it Moni. I was much more easier than I thought' I tell her.

'So amazed. Good job, my girl. Have to go now, see you in 3 days' She answers me with a sad emoticon.