Different type of love

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Nobody pov

Mililani sat silently in the waiting area of the hospital. What she had seen tore her to shreds. When she had walked in kodie was laid out on the floor with so much blood around her it made her sick to her stomach. Instantly Mililani picked her up rushing her to the hospital. And was now waiting for an answer from the doctors. This was her fear. She knew in this situation it made kodie vulnerable. But she was more angry than sad because she still didn't know why she was acting this way. She didn't know what she had done. She was furious and as soon as she got word from the doctors that kodie was ok, she was going to have a word with her. This between them had to be put to an end, she needed to fix it and immediately. As she sat in the area with her head down deep in thought, two pair of identical black shoes came into view causing her head to snap up to see a male doctor

"Hi, you were the person who brought miss shane in, correct?" he said

"Yes, how is she?" She asked nervously

"Well she did loose lots of blood, but luckily we had just brought in a shipment with her blood type. So the transfusion went well, she is resting as of now. "

"What room number is she in?" She said

"Room 450"

Mililani POV

As I walked down the halls counting down the room numbers my heart grew heavy. All I could think was, why? Why? What did I do? I'm mad at myself because I let her do this to herself. I wasn't there for her. I know she didn't want anything to do with me, but no matter what I should have stuck by her side. That's what I'm here for.....and I failed her.

450.......wiping my tears away I slowly pushed open her her door. As soon as I laid eyes on her my heart broke more. She looked like she was hurting.....even while resting she'd manage to have a scowl on her face. Walking towards her i could clearly see how she had assaulted herself. Both of her arms were covered in cuts, it was even worse than at the hospital with her mom. See her mom's doctor told me about this. But I choose not to listen, I thought that I could fix it. I thought I could fix her....
Flashback

"There's something you should know about Ms.Kodie Shane and her mother. The both of them are suffering from Philophobia. Where you have the fear of being loved which you are incapable of the acceptance of love. This is where the constant self harm comes into play.
I'm telling you this because I know them, I've known them for years and as the years progress it gets worse. They both are in need of some serious help....
Flashback over

I should have just gotten her help as soon as we got back. How could I have been so stupid? I seen all the signs but I just thought that I could fix it....fix her.

"Why do you keep doing this?" I asked not really expecting an answer but shocked me once she did

"Just leave" she said weakly

"W-what?" I said confused as I tried to hold back my tears

"Go....get out!" she tried to tell but it came out as a whisper

"No! You sitting here half dead and all you can say to me is go?" I yelled without thinking and the look she gave me killed me inside

"I-i didn't mea-"

"Fuck you! You the reason I'm here! Fuck all yall! Get out..." she managed to yell out this time I couldn't believe how she was treating me

"Fuck me?! How could you say that to me? After all I've done...." by now I was full on sobbing. My feelings were extremely hurt right now. Ignoring me she turned over on her side and pulled the thin blanket over her body

"Kodie, Answer me!" I yelled as tears fell down my face yet still no response

"Fine then....I can't keep doing this shit with you. I been here since day one....it's been what six months now. I'm tired of chasing after you, it's obvious that you don't need me....."