Different type of love

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Mililani pov

I was knocking on Kodies dorm room door but wasn't getting an answer and I began to panic when I heard screaming and things crashing. I took my Bobby pin out of my hair and picked the lock, once I got it open I rushed to her room to see her and Rae fighting like animals

"Stop!" I yelled trying to get them to stop but obviously it didn't work because a lamp came flying my way causing me to duck as it shattered behind me. I was not bout to try and break it up they was gon break my small ass. Finally after what seemed to be ten minutes they finally broke it up and glared at each other with bruised up faces....both of them looked equally messed up.

"Bitch..." Rae mumbled but jas heard her so she began charging at her until I stopped her stepping in between them with both hands on each of their chest

"Stop!" I yelled looking them both in the eyes

"Kodie wait here" I said and pushed Rae out of the room and led her to the kitchen, I grabbed the ice tray and got two bags and put a couple of cubes in each closing them and wrapping a towel around them.

"Here" I said handing her the ice pack and walked out....I wasn't gonna baby her she just got done beating my best friend to pulp....and vise versa I walked in seeing here laying in her bed

"Come Here" I said standing at the edge of her bed and she scooted towards me and positions my body in between here legs. I carefully put the ice pack on her swelling face and she winced out in pain

"Now why where y'all fighting?" I asked while sighing

"....don't even wanna talk about it.....but I do need to talk to you" she said hugging my waist looking up directly at me

"Yea? Bout what?" I said still nursing her eye....now that I've noticed she real clingy...like she likes to cuddle and be all up under me, and let me not get started on the jealously that's a whole other story for another day

"I....I wanna tell you now. I trust you....and I'm sorry for how I treated you hours ago. It was real shitty of me especially since your doing all this stuff for me and my mom's..."

"Don't think you have to tell me just because of what I'm doing for you, I want you to tell me on your time, when you're ready. And you don't have to apologize I'm the one who should be apologizing for trying to force you to do something I knew you weren't ready for...and I'm sorry for that." I was really surprised at what she was saying I thought that I was about to come over here and tell her to take all the time she needs to gain my trust....but this is really surprising, but in the end I was the one in the wrong because I know how these situations work because I've been in one myself and it wasn't easy....so I know exactly how she feels.

"I'm ready" she said

"Sit" she said after moving to the top of her bed pointing to her lap. This was nothing unusual for us I was either in her lap or in position where our bodies touching...I don't know why but she's not comfortable without me. I'll just ask about it later. She leaned over to get a bag of several pre-rolled blunts off her night stand and took one out lighting it.

"So..." she started off and she had my full attention

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Kodie pov

I took a few more drags from my blunt before putting it out and continued to speak

"So it all started when my mama had me. A couple of weeks after she had she began to slip off into postpartum depression because my dad had past. The nurse that sees her today had told me that my mom would some times cut herself because of guilt. My mom felt as she wasn't fit to be a mother. But as I got older she grew closer to me and began to love me like a mother should. Everything was good until I turned about five or six.....she began to forget things and see things. As a kid it scared the shit out of me but it didn't make me love her any less. We finally found out that she was diagnosed with schizophrenia. She was in her early stages. A lil later she met John which is my step dad. He was cool and helped her a lot with taking her medication for the first year or so, but after that shit changed for the worse." I said taking a drag from my second blunt

"So on my seventh birthday my mama was planning a big surprise party, she told him to take me out so she could set everything up. Which he did.....he took me out to the forest, I remember being so scared on the way there but once we made it and we had got out and he lead me back to where some pond was with pretty flowers and big trees....all the fear I had before had vanished and I was absorbed into the beautiful scenery
'Go ahead' he said to me and I took off running and playing just enjoying myself eventually thirty minutes later I tired myself out and laid back in the grass looking up at the sky....that, was my first mistake. He had came and laid beside me watching me closely as we had small conversation...I was happy that is until, until he made his move....he placed me onto his lap and had placed his hand on my inner thigh and started rubbing it but each time he would get higher with each stroke of his hand....I remember telling him that he wasn't supposed to be doing that but he had said that it was ok and he wasn't going to hurt me, he just wanted to touch me" A single tear rolled down my cheek and not long after I was crying a whole river

"....stop, it's ok you don't have to continue' she said whipping my tears and flipping our positions so I could lay on her chest as I now listened to her heart beat

"But I want to...I need to" I choked out and continued as she ran her fingers through my hair

"He said that I had been getting to much attention and being so spoiled that no one would tended to his needs, so he had began touching all over my body in any place he desired and I knew it wasn't right, I knew that he shouldn't have been touching me in that way but he told me it was ok...that it was normal and I believed him like the young and naive child I was. When he was satisfied, he took off his and my clothes and told me to touch him, now that for a fact I knew that was wrong....but he forced me to, he said that if I didn't he'd hurt me more than he already has....so out of fear I did it he made me touch his private areas and........you know....I was so scared....I didn't know what I was doing or what this meant." I stopped to breathe

"But that....wasn't all, after I did what he wanted these were his exact words 'i have an early birthday present for you' ..... he started back touching me, giving the fact that I was now fully undressed he had more access to my body....I tried blocking and fighting him away but that only pissed him off more. I begged for him to stop but he ignored me, hands traveling down to my secluded area" by now I was back in tears and the only thing mils could do was hold me but I needed more than that but nothing at this point could help me

"He hurt me so badly, and I swear I was doing everything in my power to get him to stop" I cried silently into her chest

"Maybe I deserved it...I was stupid and weak and still till this day nothing has changed" I mumbled

"No! Don't ever let me hear you say that shit again. Just because that dirty ass nigga did that to you and you couldn't fight back don't mean you weak" She said and I looked up to her with tear filled eyes to see that she was crying too.

"But I am...you know I'm still a virgin? I can't even have my own sexual pleasures because every time I even think about it he pops into my head....but after that he never did it again but once I grew and matured a bit more he began making slick comments and threats. Then his son had moved in he was nineteen while I was just turning fourteen...see he wasn't even his real son he was just some young boy who looked up to John as a father since he was younger, why? I honestly don't know because John isn't and shouldn't be anyone's role model. But anyways one day I over heard them speaking about me, John basically said that his 'son' could have me and do whatever he wanted to me.... But he didn't he just would beat me from time to time. He did everything without sparring my feelings and just like before I was to weak so I let it happen.....and mama still doesn't know." I said getting up from her embrace

"Look at me..." She said and I turned to face her and she grabbed my hands in hers

"You are so strong...and the sad thing is, is that you don't even realize it. Because you've let them manipulate you and train you into believing that your weak and not worth anything, but your the complete opposite. Look at where you are right now. You're at UCLA, chasing your dreams and proving them wrong, your proving to them that you are so much more than that....ok?" I nodded in response as she whispers

"Only you can determine what your future holds....prove them wrong" she said before leaning in for a hug which I was really needing at the moment

"I hate those pigs for doing that to you" She said but I didn't reply
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Omniscient pov

As she poured her secrets out and the two shared tears they didn't know that there was an extra pair of ears listening in on their conversation.....

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