Different type of love

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Kodie pov

"You did what?" I asked as my body went cold

"Listen it was a mistake i didn't mean to...the just hurt me so bad! I was tired emotionally and physically...I just- I just, I didn't know what to do" she said as she reached out for my hand but I pulled away

"Baby, please. I didn't mean to." I didn't know what to feel at this moment. I killed them.....kept rewinding in my head. She killed them

"I-I'm sorry, just let me wrap my mind around this..."

Rae pov

I could only imagine what was going through her head at this moment. This was definitely something that haunted me.

"Baby, please say something?" I said as tears began to fill my eyes

"I-I'm sorry, just let me wrap my mind around this..." she said pulling away from me with disgust in her eyes

"I'm sorry" I cried out as my heart began to ache. The anxiety began to eat at me, I didn't know how she felt. I couldn't take this. Not from her.

"I-I'm sorry I shouldn't have never told you. I knew this would happen." I said and took off running. I don't know where I was going or where I was. I just kept running

Kodie pov

"Wait! Wait baby wait!" I scream running after her as tears filled my eyes. But she wouldn't stop, she just kept running

"Fuck!" I stopped trying to catch my breath she was so far ahead I didn't see her.

"Baby, please come back, I'm sorry. Just come back and talk to me" I cried into the phone leaving the tenth message. Sighing I went and sat on the couch. I'd been home for hours now it was four in the morning and she has yet to come home or respond to my text or calls

"Baby I'm sorry again. I feel like shit, I need you please come home." I sighed leaving another message. Looking down at the time is seeing its nearly five, feeling tiredness come over me. I couldn't sleep with her not here with me. I can't sleep knowing she's not ok.
Stepping into the bathroom I turn on the shower stepping in letting the water fall over me. I couldn't think straight I was worried about her.

"I'm so sorry" I spoke out loud as tears fell freely

"Me too" Rae said behind me startling me.

Rae pov

"Me too" I said behind her as I wrapped my arms around her. Feeling her relax she turned facing me pulling my head in for a kiss. I needed this, and I needed her.

"I'm sorry" she said again as i pushed her back against the glass but I ignored her attaching my lips onto her neck feeling her shiver under me I smiled in satisfaction. I stepped back and took a moment to look at how beautiful she truly was. This very moment was the very first time I'd seen her fully, not just her body, Her mind and her soul. We were both here in a state of vulnerability. She was showing me herself even after everything she's been through even after what I put her through. She's here, here in this moment with me, even after everything, even what I just told her.

"You are no different from the rest of us. We've all made mistakes. That's what makes us human."

"I-I just don't want you to look at me differently" I said putting my head down in shame

"I could never. This is what make you, you. It changed you. Into this amazing, sweet, caring, person that I've gotten to know and...." she stopped lifting my head bringing me in for a deep passionate kiss

"Love..." she said pulling back

"H-huh?"

"I love you" she said softly with her fingers laced through my wet curly hair. I knew the feelings I had for her since the beginning.

"I love you too" I said smiling before pulling her in for a kiss. She melted into my arms, we fit perfectly together, her body fits perfectly in mine. My hands fell to her waist pulling her closer.

"I love you so much" I said again pressing my body against hers now making love marks onto her neck

"Shit" she shivered under my touch

"You ok? You want me to stop?" Giving all that she has been through I didn't want to do anything she didn't want me to do. The look in her eyes told me she wanted this just as much as I did. But I want to take things slow. Kissing her deeply , this time it felt different. I could feel the love and passion radiate between us. This, this is a feeling I've never had. I've never loved someone so much...

"Come on, the waters getting cold" I said pulling back, yet she was unresponsive. Taking in the moment betwee us. I grabbed her towel and body wash proceeding to wash her body off gently as well as mines. We rinsed off and stepped out of the shower. Things were still a little hazy for her so I helped her out and wrapped her towel around her. I led us to the bedroom where I laid her down onto the bed.

"Baby?" I said to her. I know I've done some fucked up things in life, and made millions of mistakes. But letting her in my life and falling in love with her is the best thing I've accomplished.

"I'm sorry...for everything"

"I forgive you, you know that. Stop letting that get to you. It's all a moment of the past."

"I will never forgive myself for it. I've done some stupid things but that was..."

"Baby, were here right now with each other. Together. And that's all that matters to me baby. Moving here and meeting you and lani changed me for the better. I've made friends, I'd began to love myself more. Everything is different now. Even you." She said looking me directly into my eyes. Our energy was so solid and real. Every word she'd said gave me chills. She meant everything.

"How about this? We forgive each other. I also said and done things to hurt you.. so let's forgive each other and forget it even happened." I had no words. I was completely speechless.

"I forgive you...and I love you." She said by now I had tears running down my face. She kissed them away holding my face in her soft small hands. Matching her moves I did the same bringing her in for a kiss. It feels like my lungs were filled with butterflies. Everything was still in this moment. Nothing mattered. Only her, nothing or anyone in this world has ever made me feel this way. I wanted her to feel the same way. I wanted to show her. I slowly laid her back as I began to trail my kisses down her neck. Her body was still wrapped in the towel as her hands tightly clenched the rim of it.  Slowly I loosened her hands and interlocked or fingers holding the above her head bringing her in for kiss. It was sloppy and wet. The sexual tension was rising and I needed her badly. She moaned into the kiss which was enough to send me into overdrive. My grip tightened on her hands that I still had placed above her head. Pulling back I looked into her eyes.

"Baby....you sure you want to do this?" I asked. Though is been months since I had been intimate with anyone I'd never want to rush her. I could wait as long as she needed me too.

"We don't have to if your not ready babe." I said loosening her hands bringing them back down to her sides letting them go completely as she sat up on her elbows.

"I-I want to. I need to get over my fear-"

"Baby that's not what this is about." I said now sitting up completely as did she.

"I don't want to do this to help you get over your fears. I want you to do this because your ready to, and because you trust me. To know that with me you don't have to be scared, to know in your heart I would never hurt you."

"I do baby, I just....I don't think I'm never gonna not be scared until it happens. I am ready and I do trust you. I want this, and I want it with you. Because I know you won't hurt me and I love you." She said looking deeply into my eyes.

"I'm ready" she said completely removing her towel laying back and bringing me in for a kiss. I wanted this to be special, I'm going to make her feel things she's never felt....

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To be continued