The heart of an 'ex' lover!

....sorry!

Her own little message to you ,her very own letter for you......

And I hope you like it!

Dear old Lover, My Dear Ex,

How are you?......before writing this that was one of the questions that popped up in my head and I thought it would be rather too thoughtful of me. so I decided to consider making it a formal letter but then it hit me that you were no longer someone of importance to me,that little lost girl that cherished your existence is long gone now , she's happier now, rather carefree and grown now hon!

So then, I considered using an informal format to relay my message to you but then it hit me also that that would mean comparing you to my friends and many others that I'm comfortable with but then it hit me that that might just be devaluing their positions to me , so I decided to just write what I felt which ever way my mood chose!

Please for all that it might be worth, don't see this and gloat that's the only favor I'll be needing from you, because that's not why I wrote it........this is the reason I wrote the words down,I know it may no longer be my place but these are the words I wish I had said to you that day:

Did ever you remember the sweet memories we made, yeah those ones that made you smile each time you mentioned them to me.

Did you remember the promises you made and swore to stand by,those ones that now feel like sweet nothings!

Did you remember me and how bad i felt the day I found out......did you ever miss me?

Because now you want me back........lol...... is it because the news about me moving on has reached you,you want me back?

To show me what real love is, to show me that you are better now,lol,now you are sorry, honey, you don't get to be sorry, I am the one that is sorry.

sorry for the days I spent with you

the energy I wasted on you

I'm sorry that my heart bleed for you

I'm sorry I wasnt enough for you

I'm sorry you had to seek solace with another

I'm sorry I was busy living my life

I'm so sorry I was human

but most of all I'm sorry you lost me

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And to me baby, yes me, I deserve apologies too!

I'm sorry I over worked you

I'm so sorry I let you hurt

I'm sorry that his presence was a false alarm for the things you wanted

I'm sorry I doubted your whole-ness

I'm sorry I underestimated the fact that you wanted the best for me

I'm sorry I didn't listen

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I should have known better,

I should have seen beneath the lies buried in the smoke of his truth

I should have trusted you and looked out better for you,

I should have taken things slow and watched out for the fall

I should have loved you enough to put you first.

I should have cared enough to listen

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I pray that love would find you,

but before then I hope karma pays a visit to you,

one that leaves you with a lesson that would last a lifetime!

from her with love

28/10/2017