I know it's not easy to get over hurt
But I finally figured out that after healing, a broken hearted girl turns a warrior!
Maybe my love was too much for you to handle,
Maybe my love was too little for you to stay,
Maybe I enjoyed holding on to nothing,
Maybe you were the awakening to the reality I never knew was possible.
Or just maybe I wasn't made for you as you weren't made for me ,
But whatever the maybe may be,I know my own love would find me someday!
Before you,before now,
My life was different
I was merely living just existing!
Before you,before now,
I had no focus
My vision was bleak to the future
I was without hope and without purpose.....!
But then you showed up
And
You gave me a reason to live,
You gave me a reason to be!
But then you showed up
And
You heightened my visions to life,
You made me believe in love.
With you
I saw a future,
I forgot my past,
I had hope!
With you
I saw marriage,
I saw the possibility of dying old and happy!
With you
I felt fulfilled!
But you left
You left me broken,
Left me hopeless,
Left me confused!
But you left
You left with it all,
Left me without a dream,
Left me with the pain,
Left me with a space in my heart that yearned for you!
I use to wish
To be her,
The girl you end up with
To be him,
The one you trust
To be them
The ones amongst which you found company!
I use to wish,
You could feel my absence and hurt in the sight of me,
I wished I had super powers I could use to break you, your heart and your bones!
I use to wish
You could come back to me and plead for my love,
I hoped that no other person would love and understand you the way I did,
I wanted you to crave my attention and beg to possess me again!
I use to wish
That you would run back to me and in one night I could change your mind!
Now,
I wish I could go back to the days before you came,
I wish I could forget all about you,
I wish I could take back the day we met and the day I opened my door to let you in!
Now,
I wish I could get back all my love,
The love that fueled your ego.
I wish I could get back my time,
The time I used up being love sick for you after you left!
I wish I could get back my energy
The energy I wasted trying to make things work!
I wonder,
I wonder how you are feeling in the alternate universe,
I wonder how much you love me there,
I hope I never take it all for granted
I hope in the alternate universe
I respect you and the God in you .....
The sad truth was that I loved you
And the honest lie I taught myself was believing the fact that you loved me too!
The naked fact is that I worry for you,
Honestly I bother about you, I worry mostly because
Nothing is ever enough for you!
It worries me that you are never satisfied,
Up every second with uncontentious view to what love is supposed to be,
No Romeo and no Juliet for you,
You pride yourself so graciously with the title 'player',
Captain of the hearts of women,
Taking off their clothes and settling your face in between the legs to get lost in their holiness and please your lust is a craft you've mastered!
You love taking charge in the dark of the night but remain a coward to the reality that befalls you in the day
I worry that this life you have chosen would perfect its manners in you to mould a character that your sons would inherent and modify to a skill that generations of men born to your linkage would come to master too as an act .....lol..... In the end their specialty would remain in the debt of legs of different women because, of course the sea never runs dry of 'fishes'.....so why not taste them all?
I worry because one day the goodness in their('em ladies) holiness would kill you and it would be on your death bed,just before your leave this earth that you would realise the wonderful things you could have achieved if you kept your 'peace' away for the debts of the bliss of a woman's glory!
I wonder still .....don't you ever get tired,don't you ever get exhausted from doing the same thing always, don't you get worried for your own sake ....the same thing over the years, different women cuddled up with you each night ....have you ever worried about the fact that it might be your insecurities and unhappiness springing out to cause hurt and pain to women......don't you ever worry about the curses that await you for all the hearts you've wrecked,for the self-esteem you've destroyed, for all pride you've stolen.....don't you get scared about the mouths that had prayed your destiny sealed,for the women you broke that are now dead.....don't you worry about all the terrors that are awaiting you .....
If you are not, then honey I'm worried even more for you,but I hope karma acts fair to us all as we tread the earth fairly!
Much love honey
The lost lover!
2/1/2018
Please read this chapter and tell me your thoughts about my book💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞❤❤❤❤❤😍
YOU ARE READING
The heart of an 'ex' lover!
PoetryI hope that one day when you eventually see this, you find in it all that you will ever be needing! the truth is that we all need that certainty that everyone else is just simply human like us and that they all have issues that may be binding them f...
