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Niall’s point of view
I know I shouldn’t have but i’ve slipped back into my bad habits but luckily the lads don’t know anything about it.
“Ni are you coming downstairs” Louis shouted from downstairs and I know I should but I can’t be bothered and haven’t been for a month
“Sorry bud i’m writing a song at the moment” I told him before turning my music up and going on twitter looking at my mentions, which was full of hate
‘Why do I even try anymore, no one cares’ I thought to myself as I listed who loved me and guess what?
No one does, my mum and dad disowned me when I told them I was gay, the lads only put up with me because they have to and the fans hate me.
‘I need to stop feeling so numb’ I thought to myself as I went to the bathroom and cut myself a couple of times before cleaning them and putting a bandage on my arm along with a jumper.
“Niall open up” Harry shouted over my music which I turned down and then opened the door
“Yes” I croaked
“Dinner is ready” Harry replied as he frowned
“I’m not hungry plus i’m about to go out and why you frowning” I asked
“Are you sure and because you sound like you're coming down with something” Harry answered
“Yeah i’m sure, tell the others i’ll be back by 12” I told him before going back into my room and grabbing my stuff (especially my secret stuff so if the lads came in they won’t get suspicious) and leaving the house
“Where shall I go” I thought before deciding on going drinking which I did
“ya a-alright lads” I slurred as I came through the door seeing them sat on the sofa
“Where have you been Niall you told us you would be back by 12, it’s now 2am” Liam pointed out
“Whatever” I slurred again before tripping up the stairs as I went to bed and fell asleep.
“Niall get the hell up now” Louis screamed as he shook me really hard
“Alright Louis calm yourself down” I replied before standing up and headed to my closet
“You can go now Louis, I’m up” I snapped as I realized he was still in my room
“What has happened to you Niall, you’ve changed so much” Louis questioned
“People change all the time Louis” I spat
“But not like this Niall they don’t hide in their room all day and drink all night” Louis sassily replied
“Yes they do Louis now can you please go” I asked as I pushed him out my room and locked the door on him before changing into fresh clothes then going downstairs
“Morning” I mumbled as I grabbed three paracetamol and down them with water
“Niall you're only meant to take two” Liam nagged as I shrugged
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One Direction Mental Health One Shots
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