One Direction Mental Health One Shots

Bullet // N.H

This is going to be put in a new book soon as well but here's a quick update

Xx

Niall’s point of view

I was always a happy go luck lad when o was in One Direction but since then I've fell down a deep dark hole and I can't get out.

The lads was meant to be coming to my house today but they all called up saying they didn't feel well so here I am sat at my guitar strumming random notes.

I'm going to let you into a secret I've been keep since the band broke up and that is I cut myself. I know you're probably shouting at me through your phone screens but I can't hear you guys plus who says I'm gonna listen to anyone anymore. My mum, dad and brother haven't spoke to me since I told them I got a girl pregnant, the girl don't want me to see the baby when it's born and the boys don't know so my life is great right now you know.

I decided to tweet people for a bit.

/Liam Payne - hey bud how are you, hope to see you soon

/ Louis Tomlinson- hey mate how are you, hope to see you soon

I sent the same tweets to the others before looking at what fans was messaging me.

Some said I love you, your my idol but most of them said why don't you die Niall no one will miss ya as we all love the others.

Part of me was saying ignore them but the rest of me said do it in style.

So I tweeted saying I love you all loads, see you soon, thank you for everything you guys have done.

After I tweeted that I put bullet on my speakers really loud before going into my bathroom (the next part is after the first part of song)

My legs are dangling off the edge,
The bottom of the bottle is my only friend,
I think I'll slit my wrists again and I'm gone, gone, gone,

I grabbed my razor and sliced my wrists open before collapsing to the floor and letting death take me home.

My legs are dangling off the edge,
A stomach full of pills didn't work again,
I'll put a bullet in my head and I'm gone, gone, gone.

Gone too far and yeah I'm gone again,
It's gone on too long, tell you how it ends,
I'm sitting on the edge with my two best friends,
Ones a bottle of pills, ones a bottle of gin,
I'm twenty stories up, yeah I'm up at the top,
I'll polish off this bottle, now it's pushing me off,

Asphalt to me has never looked so soft,
I bet my momma found my letter, now shes calling the cops,
I gotta take this opportunity before I miss it,

'Cause now I hear the sirens and they're off in the distance,
Believe me when I tell you that I've been persistent,
'Cause I'm more scarred, more scarred than my wrist is,
I've been trying too long, with too dull of a knife,
But tonight I made sure that I sharpened it twice,
I never bought a suit before in my life,
But when you go to meet god, you know you wanna look nice.

So if I survive, then I'll see you tomorrow,
Yeah I'll see you tomorrow.

My legs are dangling off the edge,
The bottom of the bottle is my only friend,
I think I'll slit my wrists again and I'm gone, gone, gone, gone,

My legs are dangling off the edge,
A stomach full of pills didn't work again,
I'll put a bullet in my head and I'm gone, gone, gone, gone.

We hit the sky, there goes the light,
No more sun, why's it always night
When you can't sleep, well, you can't dream,
When you can't dream, well, whats life mean?

We feel a little pity, but don't empathize
The old are getting older, watch a young man die,
A Mother and a Son and someone you know,

Smile at each other and realize you don't,
You don't know what happened to that kid you raised,
What happened to the Father, who swore he'd stay?
I didn't know 'cause you didn't say,
Now Momma feels guilt, yea Momma feels pain,

When you were young, you never thought you'd die,

Found that you could but too scared to try,

You looked in the mirror and you said goodbye,

Climb to the roof to see if you could fly.
So if I survive, then I'll see you tomorrow,
Yeah I'll see you tomorrow.

My legs are dangling off the edge,
The bottom of the bottle is my only friend,
I think I'll slit my wrists again and I'm gone, gone, gone, gone,

My legs are dangling off the edge,
A stomach full of pills didn't work again,
I'll put a bullet in my head and I'm gone, gone, gone, gone.
I wish that I could fly, way up in the sky,
Like a bird so high,
Oh I might just try,
I wish that I could fly, way up in the sky,
Like a bird so high,
Oh I might just try,
Oh I might just try.

No one's point of view

Niall was found a week later by the boys

Rip Niall James Horan