It has been a few weeks now since I blocked Justin and everything's just gotten worse and worse each day. I hate this, I'm literally on a 'Great Depression', or whatever my mother calls it. I told her and she just fucking said I told you so and shit, like mom?!!? I'm hurting and you saying that to me? My dad felt pretty bad for me though so he was like what will make me feel better, I said an iPhone X will make me so much feel better....he declined and said, 'forget what I said, you're on your own'
Ha. Family tings
And Justin? How is he? Well I don't fucking know, it looks like he's having a blast with his new girl now...still can't get over this shit. Don't even ask me, why, you saw those photos of Jelena. Yeah I'm fucking excited they're back as you are :)))))
At least he doesn't have to send me texts daily anymore since I did the job to block him
I mean I was going to unblock him like the fool that I am but Charlotte stopped me. She was like 'listen to Dua Lipa with her rules!' ..she's not wrong there
Charlotte, Kendall, Reece and I are all out for breakfast in Melrose Ave, at a breakfast resturant, Blu Jam Cafe. I really enjoy LA in the mornings since there's not that much paparazzi this time. Yeah, I know right, they still follow me around asking me dumb ass questions like I'm going to answer them but like, wtf can I do
"Do you like my eyes?" Kendall says cutting me through my thoughts
"What kind of question is that?" I ask giving her a look.
"Oh my gosh, does no one notice? I'm wearing contacts." She groans
"No one really cares, Kendall." Reece says rolling her eyes and Kendall punches his arm making him reply with an ow, pouting.. these two
I'm kind of happy to get out of my house and get something to eat with the people I love.
"So Holls, has biebz found anyway to make him unblock you." Kendall tries to joke
I shrug, "nah, I didn't block him on Instagram though, that's too much."
"Which is exactly why you should post on Instagram! So he'll miss you." Charlotte nudges me
I roll my eyes, "I'm not going to post something because of Justin."
"Damn, you guys always talk about this Bieber guy, give him a rest." Reece comments picking up his menu, clearly not liking the topic of the conversation
trust me, i don't like it either
"Shut up." I roll my eyes, "where have you even these days?"
"I still have school, still chilling..honestly don't know why my mom forced me to come here with you guys." He groans
"Because, she wanted us to spend time with each other, so the least thing you could do it actually be nice."
"Whatever. How's UCLA?"
"It's actually nice, but it's so much work damn, I have 2 essays due in 3 days, and I have only done half of one."
"Woah." he comments
"I know right, but I think I'll be okay." I shrug and then change the subject, "Isn't your birthday next week Saturday, Char?"
Charlotte gives me a look, "You ain't gotta question it, you already know the answer."
"Do you always have to put Justin in everything?"
"To make you feel like shit about asking when my birthday is? Yeah, you are correct." she smiles
I shot her a middle finger then carry on with my meal.
Sigh
In all honestly, my life is quite boring these days. I used to have so much shit going on, with Justin and Alexis and when I went on tour with Justin. Those were the days, but now since we have allegedly taken a break, I cant remember a normal day in my life when he wasnt in it, and I have only known him for a full 1 year and 4 months.
I haven't seen him for nearly 1 month - last time I actually saw him was when he fucked with my feelings at Jinkys Cafe.
"Holly," Charlotte says looking down at her phone laughing, inturrepting my thoughts like how EVERYONE does
"What?" I question
"I got a snapchat," she says then pauses
I give her a quiestioning look, confused as what she is saying, "from whooo?" I ask
"....rickthesizzler."
....oh my goodness gracious.
Forget about him sending Char a snap, its that...HE STILL USES HIS SNAP?
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Im bored tell me a joke lol
