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This is it I guess, whatever he said and made me feel I can either tell him in this "talk" or keep it to myself forever, leaving Justin oblivious, in our whole relationship situation.
"Okay, so do you have anything to say, before we talk about, you know..."
"No." I simply say, looking ahead and not at him
"okay.."
This is weird
"Okay so..." I begin
"What happened between you and Selena?" I ask for the very first time
He takes a sharp deep breathe then turns to me struggling a little because of the little space he has sitting in the drivers seat of the car, "Selena and I are just friends."
"That's not an explanation Justin."
"Holly.."
"You have to talk to me or else this can't work Justin."
He sighs, "Okay, okay fine. Just listen to me first okay? let me finish my story before you talk." he demands and I nod
"and this isn't just about Selena. This is a serious problem that I should've told you earlier before I ... made things worse."
I don't say anything
he runs a hand through his long blonde hair and sighs for the third time since this "talk"
what the fuck is he going to say to me?
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Justin's p.o.v
Fuck, i'm going to tell her. I'm going to tell her everything. I know I needed to, because she had the right to know, I just can't get the right words for me to explain to her properly
"I started seeing Selena while....we were dating."
Her perfect face turns from a neutral expression to shook
"No no, not like that. Like, I saw her while we were dating. Nothing happened between her and I while we were dating."
I can see some relief in her eyes but the sadness in her eyes never seemed to go. You see? I haven't even started yet and I'm already saying the wrong things to make her upset.
"We were simply just friends then, just hanging out. She told me about her kidney transplant and how she changed herself physically and mentally for the better. We were almost talking like we never had a terrible past between us, and like we were just old friends catching up. Later, things got worse. Not for Selena, but for me... for us. Fuck..." I stop but force myself to continue before she says anything, "I get a call from Scooter saying I must meet him immediately at his house. I was so confused as to why he urgently wanted to see me on a Sunday night but I went. I arrive at his house and he seems, worried. Pissed, but worried. It's because there's a paparazzi, from TMZ. Has some footage. Of us, you and I..."
"what was it?" she questions, looking at me with confusion
"Holly-May, it's terrible." my voice cracks a little, at the thought of it
"Justin, tell me." she says, getting more eager to know
"It's a video, practically a sex tape, of us in my pool hav-"
"don't fucking tell me they.. - They took a video of us fuck-" she stops herself
"they did, they fucking did." i answer her unfinished question
i can't tell the expression of what she's feeling right now, but i'm glad i can't
"what the hell, how? how is it that possible for them to see us?"
"the backyard view holly, you know Calabasas, people can go hiking by the view I see, and it's easy for them to see I guess." i explain to her
"but I don't understand because that's private property. in order to hike there you have to be a Calabasas resident."
"That's what we told him holly, she is a calabasas resident, surprisingly. can you let me finish the rest of the story now?"
she doesn't say anything but looks at me, signaling me to carry on
"the video was terrible. I couldn't do that to myself. Especially to you." I look at her she quickly looks away and sighs
"We called the paparazzi, had her meet up with us and we demanded her to not leak that video. Not only it is terrible for me, but Holly-May, I know that night was your first time ever and i didn't want you regretting that we had sex. I just didn't want the world thinking you're that girl had sex with me in the pool, and after becomes a no one to me. That's what the lady was trying to put out to the world, so i was trying to make her not post it. That's when I said I wanted a break. between us, because if that lady still posted the video it would save you the trouble of people thinking it's you and them thinking it's someone else, since the video only has my face revealed on it. I wasn't allowed to tell you because if I did, it would've been harder for you to leave.... That's when Scooter and them had the idea of me hanging out with Selena again to make a huge headline instead of the guy leaking the video. We kissed, that one time. But only then, nothing else. It wasn't even a kiss, it was a peck. So they can make a story up for that and leave the video alone. So Selena and I are just friends, she probably thinks I'm terrible because every time I was with her, I always kept talking about you."
I decide to stop there, so she can at least have something to say
"Why didn't you tell me all of this?"
"to save you the trouble, I didn't want you to go through that because i've seen so many people that have and it's terrible."
she takes a deep breath, wiping her eyes. Is she crying ?
"And you waited so long for you to tell me?" she says, i hear the anger building up from her tone
"I know it's fucked up. But was I going to tell you that people video taped you losing your virginity. Think about how everyone would say, and you still go to college." I explain. But all i'm really saying isn't really an excuse. I know i should've told her, but i didn't...
"I...honestly don't know what to say, thanks for the night Justin, i have to go," She says while she opens her door and exits.
"No ! wait!" I say chasing after her, exiting my car as well and running over to her side of the car
