I'm obsessed with writing this book now cause there's drama so lol I updated! You're welcome hoes 😒
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"So that's just it...you guys are over?" Charlotte asks
I shrug shoving some hot Cheetos in my mouth, changing the channel on the TV, "well he said he needs a break from me..so basically he broke up with me in the nicest possible way." I say rolling my eyes.
"No, having a break means you guys are giving each other space, but like you're still together.. right? "
"I don't know, Charlotte," I sigh with a shrug, standing up, leaving the Cheetos on the table, "I'm done with him." I tell her heading to the kitchen
Charlotte follows me and sits down on the island stool, "do you still love him though?"
Well of course it's only been 2 fucking days, I can't loose feelings in like 48 hours. I think I'll never stop loving him. He's just a fucking asshole sometimes.
Boys
I sigh and slam the orange juice on the counter, covering my face with my hands.
Fuck, no I don't want to cry.
"I'm sorry Holly." Charlotte comforts me.
I raise my head, and carry on pouring myself some orange juice, "it's just that.. why?" I ask her
"Why what?" She asks
I stop pouring the juice slamming it on the counter again, this time making it spill,
"why does he want space from me? did i do something wrong? i try to make him happy - see him everyday after my classes, maybe skipped a few after he begged me to stay longer to cuddle. All of that sacrifice for him to throw it right back at me."
Charlotte stays mute but nods so i knew she was listening, "Why did I waste my time? I've finally opened my eyes now and realize I should just leave. First he started messing with my feelings with Sofia, then Sahara, then Hailey, then he fucking cheats on me with that Alexis! Now all of a sudden he starts seeing his ex girlfriend Selena, seeing her like he's not even dating me! Like oh my fuck Justin makes me soooo mad!!! Why haven't I left?!!!" I scream frustratedly.
IM SO FUCKING MAD RIGHT NOW, I JUST WANNA CHOKE HIM UNTIL HE TELLS ME HE WAS JUST JOKING FROM THE START.
"Holly, don't blame yourself-"
"No, I should, I shouldn't have stayed with him, I ne-ver shou-ld've" I say, my voice betraying me with hiccups.
I couldn't hold it in anymore, I cried...it breaks my heart when I think to myself that the love of my life, doesn't even love me back anymore
"Aww Holly, don't cry," Charlotte pouts rushing to me and gives me the hug that I've needed for the last 2 days.
"I know you're sad but come on, you're only 19 years old. You can't cry over one boy you loved, you still have a life ahead of you, even maybe with or without Justin. You're still gonna fall in love, fall out of love and get your heartbroken countless times.. it's the things we have to go through to find out soulmates.. And don't even cry over him, it's what he wants from you. I mean for real, you're a motherfucking hot bitch, with a fat ass and those bitches out there have negative asses," she rants
I can't help but let out a laugh, wiping my tears on her now ruined shirt.
She continues, "Trust me, he'll come crawling back to you again. Or maybe he won't - who knows about that boy these days. But what we do know is that you'll show him who makes the rules, since he made a shitty mistake by wanting space or breaking up with you or whatever he calls it. If he wants a break, give him a break, and soon he'll realize that you guys didn't even need it." She tells me with a small smile
Damn I hope so, we were fucking goals.
"Now take Harry Styles' advice and just stop your crying...I don't even know how Sign OfThe Times goes but..just stop your crying and.... just try live your life without him."
She's right, I should actually just get over him. That's what he basically asked for right?
Space...
Thank goodness I didn't let Charlotte go though. I'm such a bad friend for just leaving her for some stupid boy.
What was I thinking...
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Sooooo exams start on Monday (kms) but I'm getting the IPhone 8 this weekend soooo (not kms) ayyyyy
