"Psst, holly." I hear a whisper
Mom. Or Dad. Go away.
I groan rolling over to the side of the bed the person is calling me from
"Wake Holly, it's me."
I open my eyes
To see Justin waking me up
I widely open my eyes in shock getting a huge fright when i see him, quickly sitting up and giving me him a look
"what the fuck are you doing here?!" i whisper-shout looking to see if my door was open and it was, wide open
"I came to talk to you!-"
"Shhhhh!! No get out Justin! You can't be here. Wait how'd you even get here?!"
"You never took back your spear key."
"Well you have to leave, my parents are asleep and if they hear you they will flip-"
"Please? I have sushi." he tells me showing me the 'Sushi Dushi' logo on the plastic
"that's not gonna do anything-"
"it's 16 salmon roses, with extra mayo." he tells me
damn. I do love that.
i roll my eyes and stand up closing the door and then locking it, "fine but inside voices please. and i'm tired, and i swear if you try do anything, like you did tonight, i will kick you out, i swear-"
"i promise i won't, i'm just checking up on you Holly."
I miss that.
i sit on my bed getting in the duvet, taking the sushi from him, he walks to the other side of my bed getting in the duvet with me.
i sigh, "checking up on me with what?"
"i heard what charlie said to you." Justin says opening the sushi
"how?" i ask
"i was walking back to my car and i over heard your guys' fight." he shrugged handing me the sushi
i roll my eyes, "what part did you hear?"
"when he said, 'yeah, leave like how Justin left you'"
i sigh and don't reply
"why would he say that?"
"he wanted to kiss me."
he clenched his jaw, "he did?"
"yeah, so?" i get angry a little. He kissed Selena
"i'm just asking." he shrugged trying to hide his emotions, taking a sushi putting it in his mouth. He looks at me waiting for me to tell the full story
i decided to just tell him everything, "so he tried to but i said no so he got so triggered but i didn't want to because he left me out talking to all these girls so i didn't feel comfortable to, then he started saying, i'm just over thinking about him and if i want to leave i can because he won't beg for my love like you and... it was just upsetting." I sigh grabbing some more sushi
why am i telling him everything?
justin caught me off surprise replying with, "he's right."
i look at him confused, sushi full in my mouth
"if he can't beg for your love, or say please, he won't fall to the ground on his knees for you, why does he need your love if instead he says you can leave if you want to? especially when he keeps bashing and comparing his feelings for to mine?"
I don't reply, i only look at him.
he looks at me in the eyes
"I did beg for your love."
"....and I gave it to you, don't forget that." I reply
he doesn't reply but only smiles taking the one last sushi then lies down on my bed getting too comfortable
"woah? you can't sleep here." i tell him shaking him to sit up
he groans, "why not? please, it's 3am, i don't want to drive Holly."
"my parents are home."
"i'll leave before 10am."
"that's too late."
"fine 8am."
i sigh, "agh, okay." i finally accept
i put the empty sushi box on the side table and put my phone on charge getting ready to sleep.
i face the opposite side from justin so we could sleep back to back.
basically like a married couple lol
"Holly?" Justin whispers
"Yes?" I reply
i hear him turn to face me but sees i'm facing the other way
he softly grabs my shoulder basically telling me to face him, and I do
but my eyes stay closed
"i'm sorry, if it was my fault for us kissing tonight." he says, "i just really missed you." he says caressing his hand on my cheek
"you're right." i say still with my eyes closed
"about?"
i yawn opening my eyes to see his face inches to mine, "it is your fault."
"it's hard to be friends with you, you know?" he says "i'm just so in love with you still." he whispers to himself
my heart skips a beat, but i choose to ignore it
"i haven't been happy lately." Justin tells me, and stops facing me to face the ceiling
"why not?" i ask looking up at his face
he only shrugs, "cause like, fuck, im lonely. I live in a big house with no human beings, whats keeping me happy?"
i sigh, grabbing his hand to give it a squeeze
"it will get better Justin. I can promise you that."
he nods
"can you promise me one thing?"
"what's that?"
"promise me you'll never forget about us."
i only answered, "who would?"
