"And now Marco, do you take Chantal to be your wife?... Do you promise to love, honor, cherish, and protect her, forsaking all others, and holding only unto her forevermore?"
Silence
Lahat kami nakatitig sa kanya pero tuloy tuloy ang agos ng luha ko
Priest snap his fingers na nagpabalik sa kanya sa realidad
"Po? Father, sorry" hinging paumanhin nito, napaiwas na ko ng tingin at di napigilang mapahagulgol ng tahimik
"I repeat Marco, do you take Chanel to be your wife? Do you promise to love, honor, cherish, and protect her, forsaking all others, and holding only unto her forevermore?"
I heard his deep sigh and answered "I do"
"Chanel, do you take Marco to be your husband? Do you promise to love, honor, cherish, and protect him, forsaking all others, and holding only unto him forevermore?"
Nakayuko lang ako at patuloy na umiiyak
"Chanel, ija?" Father asked once again
This time nilakasan ko na yung loob ko at humarap kay Marco
Agad ko itong niyakap ng dahan dahan at ninamnam ang bawat sandali "m-mahal na mahal kita m-marco, s-sobra" hagulgok kong sabi habang hinuhubad yung engagement ring sa daliri ko
I look into his eyes while placing the ring in his palm "p-pero hindi n-naman ako yung m-mahal mo"
I felt running out of air while saying it
He was just staring back at me "G-Gusto ko m-maging masaya ka" I smile bitterly and slowly walk down the aisle but the other way around
walking away from my cheater groom
2 days ago... I was planning to surprise him a mukbang date before our special day but i'm the one who surprised
"YES MAGIGING TATAY NA AKO!"
"Shhh don't shout, nakakahiya"
"I'm-- i'm just happy!"
I overheard them, 2 blocks away from his house.
Para akong nabato sa kinatatayuan ko, naguunahan sa pag-agos yung luha ko
Yehey! Magiging tatay ka na... pero hindi sakin.
It's time to let him go and forget about us, it's time to erase him in every plans I made for the future, erase every dreams we wanna reach, erase the thought that we will be living happily as husband and wife with our kids.
But
Will I be able to survive everyday without him? Dahil nasanay na kong nandyan lang siya para sakin...
Will I be able to share my thoughts and feeling without my human diary?
Will I be able to laugh hard without my very own clown?
Will I be able to feel warmth without my human blanket?
Will I be able to express my talent without my greatest supporter?
Will I able to love again when my whole heart is on him?
Will I be able to breath without an oxygen?
