Attention || VerKwan

~9~

As the two lovebirds walked out of the locker room, cheeks slightly tinted and clothes not as neat as they were before, Hansol held on to Seungkwan's hand as tightly as he could and it made Seungkwan feel so loved and safe.
Before they rejoined their friends however, Hansol pulled Seungkwan to a halt.
"Seriously though, Kwannie, please don't do that to me again..."

Hansol's voice sounded so soft and small and suddenly Seungkwan could feel a tightness in his chest.
"I didn't mean to make you feel bad, Vernonie, I'm sorry..." Seungkwan wasn't used to seeing his best friend so vulnerable and guilt started to rise within him. Maybe Soonyoung was right, maybe it wasn't such a good idea.

"It's just that... well, I'm afraid of losing you. Now more than ever. I don't know why exactly, it's hard to explain. I just feel like I lack as a boyfriend and as a best friends and I'm afraid that I'm going to do something wrong and that you're not gonna want to be with me anymore... I know I act like I don't care most of the time but truth is I do care. I care a lot. If I ever lose you... god, I don't know what I'd do..."
Hansol looked at their intertwined hands as he spoke, his voice low and quiet. Seungkwan had never seen Hansol look so small. He never really knew how insecure he was but it wasn't just that. It showed how much Hansol actually cared about him, and it was something he should never take for granted. Pushing him away just to see if he'd come back was the worst thing he could ever do to Hansol and Seungkwan realised that now.
He pulled Hansol towards him and wrapped his arms around his waist, hugging him tightly.
"Chwe Hansol, you know how much I love you, right? That's never going to change. I mean it. Look at me."
Hansol brought his eyes up to meet Seungkwan's. The blonde looked intently in to his eyes for a while, making sure he had Hansol's full attention.
"You are more important to me than anything or anyone else on this planet. You've always been there for me even when I probably annoyed the hell out of you. You were there for me when no one else was and I love you for that. I have always loved you for that and I will always love you for that. I know it sounds super cheesy but I can't imagine a life without you. Chwe Hansol you are my everything. And I hope you will never forget that." 
Before Hansol could say anything, Seungkwan softly pecked the taller boy's lips before resting  the side of his face on Hansol's shoulder. Hansol choked back a tear and smiled as he wrapped his arms around Seungkwan's smaller figure and held onto him tightly, softly rocking them from side to side.
"I love you so much, Boo Seungkwan."
He whispered.
"I love you more."

H-hii...
I know it's been forever I'm so sorry
Here's a little softness for all you thirsty hoes
I'm sorry pls don't hate me
This is like a month late and it's short and shitty
I KNOW
I love you all so much tho