Suntok sa Buwan (to be edited)

Epilogue

I accidentally erased the first epilogue, so here's a new one. :)

TORRES' POV

One thing that I promised to myself- not to fall in love, again.

Yes, I fell in love once and I could say that it was the best feeling, but nevertheless... it was also the painful. It's like I'm living but I'm dying inside, I'm walking but my bones are breaking inside and it's like I'm here existing but in reality I am not.

All my life since that day, nagpakatanga ako. Nagpakatang sa salitang 'Mahal kita.'

That's why, after she died... my heart also died. Kasama ng mga kasinungaling ipinakita niya noong kami pa.

Until I knocked on Shania's front door.

Nabuo ang plano ko na gamitin siya at ilayo sa kaibigan ko, kay Kael. Ayoko matali sa isang pagsasama na puno ng kasinungalingan, that's why I did everthing just to break the knot. Even if betraying him is the only way. Alam kong mali, pero yun lang ang naiisip kong paraan. Dahil alam kong wala anumang makakasira sa lintik na arrange marriage na meron sila ni Shane. So I came up with the idea na gamitin ang pagmamahal sa akin ni Shane para masira ang arrangement na yun.

Shane and I never had any label. I used her as my toy at alam niya ito pero pikit mata niyang hinarap ito dahil mahal niya ko. I never treat her as my woman, just as woman who can satisfy my needs as a man. It's my vengence to her, because she's the reason why that accident happened. Kung di niya sinabi ang lahat edi sana... sana buhay pa siya.

But I know deep inside me, utang na loob ko kay Shane ang lahat. Kundi niya sinabi ang panloloko sa akin ni Shantal. Malamang higit pa sa pagpapakatanga ko ngayon ang ginawa ko noon. Shane just saved me, pero hindi ko iyon matanggap.

I was devastated, hopeless. My heart was like an ice, not until I met her and everything has changed.

I can't take my eyes off to the aisle as I watched the woman I love walking her to me. She's wearing a gown and the gorgeousness is an understamate. And by looking at her right now, my heart just melted.

Hindi ko alam kung bakit ko siya pinakawalaan noon. But I know I did the right thing. I was broke at ayoko humarap sa kanya sa posisyon kung saan alam ko sa sarili ko na hindi ako kumpleto. They said that you need soeone to fix your broken heart, but for me it's not true. Kung gusto mo talagang muling buksan ang puso mo. You need to fix yourself firstso that you can fully give your heart to someone else.

And that was what I did when I went off to London. Inayos ko ang sarili ko, I searched for myself because gusto ko pag humarap ako sa babaeng mahal ko. Buong-buo kong maibibigay ang sarili ko.

Kael knew from the start kung na saan ako and he even went after matapos ang isang taon. He even punched me hard sa unang pagkikita namin noon sa London and when I asked him kung para saan yun? Para daw yun sa pagpapa-iyak sa isang inosenteng babaeng ahalaga sa kanya. Ang I knew kung sino ang tinutukoy niya iyon.

"Bakit feeling ko, kayo ang ikakasal at hindi kami ni Auds." Bulong sa akin Kael kaya naman natawa nalang ako. Muli kong ibinalika ng mata ko sa babaeng kanina ko pa tinitigan and when she finally seated to the Maid of Honor's chair our eyes met.

My feelings were mirrored on her eyes. Longiness, doubt, and love.

And by that time I realized, meron pang Lorie at Torres.

Pagkatapos na kasal ay agad ang akong tumakbo palabas ng simbahan para habulin si Lorie. Matapos kasi ang picture taking, bigla nalang siyang anwala at sigurado akong pupunta siya sa parking lot para makauwi. And I won't let that happen, hindi ko na siya hahayaang mawala sa akin. I won't ever let her go, not now, not ever.

Hinihingal man ay nawala ang pagod ko mula sa pagkakatakbo when I saw Lorie, nanginginig na pilit niyang binubiksan ang kotse niya. "Lorie." I said as I walked nearer to her.

Bigla siyang natigilan. When I was about to walk closer to her she stopped me. " No..." She hissed. "Don't come nearer." Nanghihinang bulong niya.

"Why Lorie?"

"...Tell me."

"Dahil natatakot ako!" She said and faced me. I felt a pinched on my heart wehen I saw tears coming form her eyes. Napaiyak ko na naman siya, wala na ba ako kayang gawin kung di ang paiyakin siya?

"U-Umalis ka, iniwan mo ko. Tapos ngayon babalik ka." She weeped. "Para ano? Paibigan ako ulit tapos sasaktan ako tapos iiwan mo na-" I halted her as I kissed her fully on her lips. I kissed her passionately as I longed for those years that I didn't see her. Masakit para sa akin ang apat na taon na iwan siya, na mawalay sa piling niya lalo pa't alam kong nasasaktan siya para sa akin. But I am here now and I'm willing to pay every single second na wala ako sa tabi niya.

I ended our kiss and wipe her tears using my thumbs. "Don't be afraid Lorie, I am here now... I won't ever leave you anymore. Ikakamatay ko ang isa pang araw na malayo sa iyo. Those four years without you was hell for me. I love you Lorie, not because you have Shantal's heart... but because you're my Lorie." I genuinely smiled.

Lalo siyang naiyak at tyaka ako sinuntok sa dibdib. "Nakakainis ka!" Sigaw niya. "Ilang taon ako nagpumilit na mag-move on tapos dumating ka lang, tumibok na naman ang bwisit na puso na ito nang dahil sayo."

Natatawang yinakap ko siya and I felt her arms hugged me back. "Then let you heart beats for me Lorie, coz I am letting mine to beat just for you."

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