I do not feel at ease
It's like I want to but can't sneeze
I've begun to cough and wheeze
I suppose it's a diseaseMalevolent winter chill
Seems to have gotten to my bones
And now I've taken ill
I've succumbed to grunts and groansAmidst the crystal flakes
The icy trees and frozen lakes
I know it is for my own sake
That my bones ache and freeze and breakI love this winter like a fantasy
I love the cold like I love life
I love the pain the cold has brought to me
I love the darkness, hate, and strifeThe darkened thoughts help me see darkness
My night vision grows like ivy
I can feel the softened hardness
Of a life lived in survivingAnd with this new perspective
I can better see the stars
The frozen lake reflective
Of my doubts, my grief, my scarsMy life like constellations
Fading into pink sun rising
I come to the realization
There's nothing wrong with not survivingI could stay here just too long
So that I'll never be found
I could sink into the lake
Drowning down, down, down, down...But that would be a shame
If I have such a constellation
I wouldn't want to make it lame
When it deserves congratulationI know that every light
Will be balanced out by fear
This I shall not fight
Only live out year by yearAs long as I can center
All my pain in the right places
I'll have chance as a mentor
I can put some smiles on facesAnd thus I can achieve
Even when I can't believe
Even if I'm down so low
Almost freezing in the snowBut I'll always have my hope
I'll always have my pain to cope
I'll always have a bad disease
I'll always feel weak in the kneesAnd so life shall always go
On and on through banks of snow
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Unrequited Love for No One in Particular
PoetryI'm in love with no one, but with that emptiness comes freedom for my heart to wander along with my mind.