l i t t l e n o t e s

(you're going to die, unless you do this) and it is that easy? (yes).

my obsessions and compulsions
are in my head.

(do you really think that?)

they are thoughts,
they're not real.

(do you really want to risk it?)

but if i give in
i'm still not giving up.

(you keep telling yourself that)

because if i don't do it
and then i die or
someone else does
and it will be my fault.

(that's more like it)

so it's settled,
i have to.

(there we go)

//I've been reading "Turtles All The Way Down" by John Green and I relate to it so much. The spirals Of thoughts that suck us in and the intrusive thoughts I can not control. So that's why I've written this. Although it's context is vague the examples would be washing hands or saying goodnight or being paranoid about illness and touching things.// ANYWAY have a good day//