Misunderstandings

The Past

Su Xiaomi

"I'm not letting you go that easily again. You've given up hope but I haven't. If you want to do it your way, we will. If you think you're going to die that I'll allow you to leave me then just try. I'll fight you and I'll fight death if I have to. Even if we lose. Even if at the end of all this you do leave me behind and even if I have to endure this pain I'll bear it."

Xiaomi couldn't stop thinking about what Yan Yan had said to him. He couldn't sleep the previous night feeling restless. His heart it seemed would always give Yan Yan leeway regardless of anything that he said or did. This made Xiaomi angry with himself. He was supposed to be strong and resilient when it came to Yan Yan.

The sound of the bell at the front caused Xiaomi to look up from where he was sitting. However, before he could say anything Xiao Jie simply asked him to sit.

"I'll take care of it." She spoke.

"I'm here to help." Xiaomi spoke stubbornly.

"Just rest okay. Stop making a fuss you've just gotten out of the hospital."
"There's a lot to do here." Xiaomi argued.

"You can work the cash register if it means that much to you but I don't want you walking around yet."
"What about deliveries?"

"Yang Hui is taking care of it. He comes by and helps or sends someone to do so."

Hearing this from Xiao Jie caused Xiaomi to smile.

"So... did you finally agree to go on that date with him?"
"She better because that's my one and only motive." Yang Hui spoke walking into the store, the ring of the bell behind him as he entered. Offering a smile to Xiao Jie which caused the girl to blush. On the other hand, Xiaomi made a face of disgust then smiled when Yang Hui himself chuckled at his expression.

"How've you been?" He asked.

"I'm sure Yan Yan or Lu Yiyi have informed you of it. There's nothing a big mouth like Yiyi hasn't said to someone."
"She's only concerned for you Xiaomi." Yang Hui spoke patting him on the head and causing Xiaomi to simply try and fix his hair back in place. Yang Hui didn't say much after instead simply grabbed the clip board of addresses for the next batch of deliveries and headed to the back with Xiao Jie to load the truck and go on his way. Sighing Xiaomi began to arrange the bottles on the counter neatly. He'd done so for the past three hours and was bored out of his mind.
"Why did I bother coming to work?" He thought to himself.

With nothing to do as it seemed today customers had decided to not come Xiaomi settled for knitting. What he loved most was doing small activities such as these. They helped pass the time for him and it was something he happened to be good at. It was something that helped clear his mind. However, as Xiaomi worked on a yellow baby blanket his mind continued to think about that kiss.

It had been such a long time since Xiaomi had been kissed. The truth was he had not wanted to be kissed by anyone that was not Yan Yan. At the time when they had split Xiaomi couldn't see anything around him it was like the world had muffled to silence. That was something Xiaomi was very ashamed of. He had lived his life centered around one person entirely. The naïve Xiaomi had been okay with that.

The person Xiaomi was now... this was something he never wanted to do again.

"I'm not letting you go that easily again. You've given up hope but I haven't. If you want to do it your way, we will. If you think you're going to die that I'll allow you to leave me then just try. I'll fight you and I'll fight death if I have to. Even if we lose. Even if at the end of all this you do leave me behind and even if I have to endure this pain I'll bear it."