The Road to....Somewhere???

This Was Not Going To Be Pretty

Logan's p.o.v.

So, this morning was pretty awkward.

The routine that had been established almost from day one, was totally off. Ashley was out of the bed before I even woke. She never got up without me. She gave me a light peck before she left, but not a proper kiss. She left well before usual, claiming she had a bunch of work to catch up on. Of course, I knew this to be true, but I also knew that was not the real issue. I just tried to go on with the morning, as if everything was fine.

I shouldn't have done so, though. I knew she was hurting, but I also knew that the only way we were gonna get this sorted out, was to talk about it. She, however, did not seem up for that. She was always adamant about talking things through if there was a problem. Now, though, she was being closed off. Obviously there was something to talk about. I couldn't understand why we just didn't. Just lay all the cards on the table. It would have to be better than this charade we were putting on.

"Logan, you have a phone call." The girl answering the phones says, when I pick up my ringing phone.

"Can you see who it is, please?" 

"Sure. Give me just a moment ma'am." 

I wasn't sure who it was going to be. Most people that I knew just called my cell. Someone calling the store usually meant I had no want to talk to them. It was usually just business, and I was able to direct the call to one of my Shift Managers. 

"Ma'am, she said her name is Lindsey." Oh fuck. Though it was only yesterday, and all of my problems began with her showing up, I had actually not thought about her again since Ashley and I arrived home last night. Now, I wasn't sure what to even do about the situation.

I was scared that if I didn't talk to her, she would do something horrible. Talking to her could cause just as many problems. It was so close to time for me to go home. Why couldn't she have waited just a little bit longer to call? I could have avoided the whole situation for one more day.

"Ok, send it back here." It was better to face this problem head on. To look it in the face, and fix it. I had done so much running and hiding in my life, it was time to make a change. Ashley and I could be over with, because of me doing those things. No more. 

"Hello Lindsey." 

"Hey there baby. How's it going today? Sorry I called you at work. I don't have your cell number anymore." She sounded so sincere. Like she had been here all along, calling me everyday. How do I reply to that? Call her on her craziness? Talk nicely to try to avoid a scene with her later? I just didn't know. I was going to have to wing it.

"Lindsey, what are you doing calling me? Where are you?" As I am talking to her, my cell phone is out, messaging Ashley. No more lies starts right now. I let Ashley know that Lindsey was on the phone, and she had just called. I would keep her updated about what was being said.

"I am in the parking lot baby. Parked next to your car. I figured you'd be getting off soon, and I was waiting for you. I just missed your voice, so decided to call." Really? This is crazy. How can a person think like that, given we hadn't spoken in such a long time? Ashley texted me back, letting me know she would be waiting for updates, and to let her know if I needed her. The bitch was in the parking lot. Of course I needed her. I shot a message to Ashley letting her know this. Thinking I may need to keep this going, to at least maybe keep her from coming inside, I decided to not be to harsh just yet.

"So you're in the parking lot? Where are you staying Lindsey?" Ashley replied that she would be here in ten minutes. I was scared, and yet relieved that she would be here.

"Well, right now, I am sleeping in my car. I don't really have money for anything else. I was thinking I could stay with you. It would be just like old times. I want to come home baby." She sounded so sad. If she wasn't trying to fuck my entire world up, I might could feel sorry for her.

"I don't know if that can happen Lindsey. I mean, you have been gone for so long. You left me, without warning or explanation. How do I know you won't do that again?" I just had to keep her talking long enough for Ashley to arrive.

"Baby, I said I was sorry for all that. I told you, I was messed up then. The drugs had me doing crazy things. I can fix it. I will make everything better. I promise."

"But I'm scared. What if you do it again? There is no way I could go through that again. You hurt me really bad Lindsey." Ashley said she would be here in five minutes. Soon enough this would be over.

"I promise I will never do anything like that again. I won't ever hurt you again. I miss you. I miss what we had. Please give me another chance. I know I can do you right this time. Please?" She was crying now. I could hear it in her voice. 

"I don't know Lindsey. I just don't know." I was purposely not bringing up Ashley, hoping that she wouldn't think about the fact that my girlfriend might show up because of this. 

"Why do you keep saying my name? Why aren't you calling me baby, like you always did? It seems weird. Hey, I think I will come in, so I can see you." I had not consciously realized I kept saying her name, but thinking about it, it was probably to keep it as impersonal as possible. It made me remember who I was talking to, and every time I said her name, the pain she had put me through hit me full force.

"No, don't come in. I'll be off soon. I'll be coming out there shortly Lindsey. Just stay where you are." I did not want her in this store again. I didn't want anyone to see her, or know she was there to see me. To much crap would get started. I just wanted her in the parking lot, where Ashley and myself could possibly deal with the situation discreetly.

"Ok, if you're gonna be here soon, I guess I can wait. Just hurry. I wanna see you baby." My phone went off, letting me know Ashley was in the parking lot, and parking next to my car.

"I will talk to you in a bit Lindsey. Let me finish up. I'll talk to you in just a minute." I needed off the phone. 

"Ok. I'll see you shortly. I love you baby." I didn't reply. I simply hung the phone up, and headed out of my office, texting Ashley, telling her to wait for me before she did anything.

I had no idea what was fixing to go down, and for that, I was scared.

This was not going to pretty.