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Chapter 21: Lost

I cried myself to sleep last night. My eyes are so heavy. I cuddled a pillow and realised that I've finished everything, I then cried.

I stand from my bed and went to the loo. I take my phone with me and there were no messages from Harry or Ellie. I just don't know what to expect when I come home. I should first talk to Ellie about her being sorry last night. It was terrible. I never wanted to hear my best friend cry.

I went on Twitter and my mentions are dead now. I then went to my profile and one thing surprised me. My follower count came down to 254. Where is my two million?!

I scrolled past my tweets and there weren't tweets from Directioners anymore. I then went to Harry's profile and waited for it to load until I saw that he isn't following me anymore. I tried to send him a message and it didn't reach him. I went to Niall's profile and he wasn't following me as well. Zayn, Louis and Liam weren't also.

"No! What is happening?!"

I checked on my contacts if I still have their number but I don't!

After I finish, I walked out of the loo and sat on my bed again, searching my contacts that I had when I was with Harry but nothing was left so all I had to do is cry my heart out again.

I quickly had to go home to check on Harry if he is still in the flat so I took a cab back home and asked for news keys from Mr. Green and I can hear him saying something about my doorknob but I didn't care anymore since I want to know what is going on in my room.

As soon as I opened the door. It was all clean and what caught my attention was my laptop. It was still on the table but the note and necklace are gone.

"Harry..." I say and opened my room. No one is in here. It was all clean. I opened my closets and there were no clothes of Harry anywhere. Even his toiletries weren't in my bathroom anymore.

Tear streamed down my face as I sit down in front of my laptop to see if I have already completed my story and while waiting, I scrolled my gallery to see our photos but it wasn't here anymore.

As my computer starts, I opened my document and entered the password. I scrolled down, way down and the last sentence was it.

"As soon as Harry walks out of the flat, he is already free."

My story is finished, then I break down and cry since I don't know what is really happening around me now. I have a lot of questions in my head but I can't answer them all at the same time that I want to.

I called Ellie and cried on the phone.

"Good day, Tara." She sounded happy. "Ellie, he's gone." I say and sobbed. "Who's gone? Calum? Who?" She asks me. "Harry." I say and cried my heart out. "Harry's gone." I say and continued crying. "Is he dead?! Tara?!" Ellie sounded worried but she seemed so blank. "No! He is not! He's not in my flat anymore when I came home." I tell her. "What? Harry Styles?" Ellie says and I thinks she's already at state. "Yes. Harry Styles. He wasn't in my flat anymore." I say. "Harry Edward Styles? From One Direction? In your flat?" She asks again. "Yes! Ellie! He's gone! I left the necklace and the note on top of my laptop and it was gone." I cried. "Tara. You're dreaming again. How would Harry be in your flat?!" She says with a laugh. "Ellie?" I started to doubt since she sounded different. "I think you're hungry. I'll come over in a few." She says and I hang up.

Ellie sounded like she didn't remember anything?! I run my fingers through my hair and my phone rings. Calum is calling.

"Hello?" I answer and sounded like I didn't cry. "Babe, I'm sorry for what happened last night. I didn't mean to insult you." He says and my eyes widen as I was shocked and I'm slowly getting what's happening now. "Calum?" "Yes? Tara, I'm really sorry." He says and I cried.

This is not happening. Why does it look like I came back to the day where Calum and I broke up?!

"Tara, stop crying. I'm... I'm sorry." He says. "Calum, I am serious with our break up. I'm done with you." I say, I have really moved on from him. "Tara, why are you crying then?" He asks. "Because Harry." I say and quickly ended the call.

How could this happen? My story was finished. The necklace and note weren't here anymore which means that I can publish the book. The date today is Monday, which was Sunday yesterday where me and Harry came all the way home from Newcastle. Ah!

I called Ashton and gladly he answers.

"Good day, Tara." He says. "Ashton, uhm, did Harry left his shirt there?" I randomly asked. "Harry? Who's Harry?" He says then I hang up.

How come no one knows that I had a relationship with Harry?!

I take a warm shower before Ellie comes over for lunch. My heart is beating so fast about what it happening. I don't even know where Harry is right now.

I feel so sorry about what happened last night. I should've stick to one issue, he was right. If I did that, maybe I still had time with him but I guess this will also happen soon.

I finished my shower and put on my pajamas. As I looked at the mirror, my eyes are puffy from crying but I couldn't stop. I have no more tears left so I try myself to calm down and relax from what happened.

As I sit down on the couch in the lounge, I'm still shocked and blanked from what happened. I caught myself staring at the coffee table where Harry last placed his car keys.

The doorbell startles me so I stand from my seat and walked towards it and opened it.

"Hi! Good--- your eyes." Ellie says as he voice changes from being so excited to sad. "Come...come in." I say and she just can't take her eyes off me as she places the food she brought and settles down on the couch. "Did you cry? Well, of course you did. Your eyes are so puffy. But why?" She asks and I sit beside her.

"Harry's gone now." I say and cried away. My eyes are seriously heavy. "What? What do you mean? He's just on tour with the lads. "I don't know what is happening now. But I've finished a story and he left after we argued last night." I say but Ellie was so confused. "Ellie?!" "I don't know what you're talking about." She says. "You...you called...you called last night and told me about Harry and my cousin, then we argued then we---" "Tara, aren't you dreaming? Chris told me you broke up with Calum. What is happening?" Ellie holds my arms. "Tara, maybe you're dreaming." "I was not! I was with Harry! Ellie!" I keep on insisting her but she shakes her head.

"What is wrong with you?" Ellie asks me and I just sobbed again. "Remember when you first saw him, then we met the boys, we went to Niall's home, we...we...we went to Glasgow to meet Ed Sheeran and had our albums signed, we had Christmas in Los Angeles, he introduced me to his mum, mum knew Harry too." I stopped as she absolutely looked blanked. "Ellie!" "Tara, I don't know what you're talking about. I'm serious." She says. "Why can't you remember anything?!" I say and I crouched down to me knees and continued crying.

"Maybe it was just a dream." Ellie says and I shake my head. "No! It was not." I say. "Tara... Stop crying... If... If it happened... Then it did. But... He doesn't even... Know you." She says. "That's actually my problem now." I say  and looked at her, she then rubs my back. "Tara, please, just calm down. Look at your eyes. You look terrible. Do you think Harry will like that?" Ellie says. "Harry loves me in every way, no matter how I look like." I say.

Ellie asks me what was I telling her the whole time. She told me if I don't keep calm and won't stop crying she would bring me to the hospital to be checked and she knows that I hate hospitals and if no one remembers anything from what I'm saying, I would like to keep it a secret between the both of us.

"I didn't know. Tara. I'm promise that I don't know anything from what you're talking about. If it is true for you, then, I'll...I'll just be with you." She says and I nod. "By the way, Tara, if you finished the fan fiction already, are you going to publish it right away?" Ellie asks me as she walks towards the table where my laptop was placed and sits on the chair. "Give me a week before I go back to Footprints. I have to free my mind now." I answer and wiped my tears. "Calm down now. Let's have lunch." Ellie stands from her seat and gets the food she bought inside the bag.

"I...I'll take mine later." I say and walked to my room bringing my laptop with me.

I sat on my bed and placed my laptop on my lap as I Googled my name and Harry's but there were no results, there was Cara but not Tara. How come there are no search results about us?

"Tara, have your lunch now." Ellie says as she walks inside my room. "Did Calum call you?" I ask her. "No. But he called Chris." She says. "Hey, in your dream, or should I say, uhm, story? Did me and Niall end up together?" She asks and sits beside me. "No. You were with Chris." I answer. "Oh! Why? Can't you control Niall?" "I can't." I answer.

"Do you know where Harry is? Maybe if he sees me, he'll remember me?" I ask. "He's in Latin America on tour. They'll be back within two weeks." Ellie answers. "How could this be... But will they go on tour this June?" I ask her. "Huh? I don't know." Ellie shrugs. "They'll tour on June again." I says. "No update yet." She says. "Are you going to the uni tomorrow?" "Of course. I just need a week to think to when should I give my book to Footprints for printing." I say. "What if it gets printed then...that memory of yours comes back?" "You mean in reality. I don't know. I don't want to know what is going to happen anyway." I say and looked back at my laptop where there were no articles written about Harry and I anymore.