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Chapter 27: Pretended From The Start

"Tara loves the chicken"

Adam posted a photo on Twitter with me and six plates of chicken wings in front of my frowned face. I didn't know he was taking a photo.

"@AdamHarmel u d^ck that is not mine"

I tweeted him back and after a few minutes I heard someone knocking on my door. I looked at the peephole and it was Adam, he was smiling.

"@AdamHarmel GET OFF THE DOOR"

"@tarashaw who you calling d^ck?"

"@AdamHarmel autocorrect's fault I meant duck silly"

I then forgot he has one of my keys and my door unlocks. I pushed Adam away from my room but he started to play around again until I was sitting on the floor, my back against the wall.

"Get up there!" Adam pulls me up but I can't even stand from laughing. "Then you shouldn't tickle anymore! You're f^cking killing me!" I say and he laughs. "Get up!" He says. "Duck." I say and he helps me stands.

"You better stop or I'll call Ms. Johnson." I say with a laugh. He was holding both of my hands and I'm trying to hurt him but he's bloody strong.

"Adam."

I turn to my right and Harry was standing outside his door.

"Harry, he's killing me!" I say to him out loud and Adam covers my mouth with his hand. I slap his hand and he takes it off. Harry walks towards us. "What are you both doing?" He smirks. "Twitter." Adam says. "Can you just let Tara rest?" Harry says and looks straight at Adam's eyes. "He's right." I say. "Tara has signing tomorrow." Harry adds.

They had a little talk and we went back to our rooms now.

Dallas signing today. It has been a month that I've been touring with the boys and we're about to be finished. I'm very excited to come home. I miss my flat and Ellie. We were in the lounge of the mall and for today, the boys are with me.

The boys were sitting while I'm standing, holding a water bottle and looking at them.

"Hey." Adam pokes the side of my belly. "Shh." I say. "What?" He pokes me again. "Can you stop." I looked at him. "Duck." I say. "Can you stop calling me that?" He says and he was about to play around again but I stopped his hands. "Gah! Stop!" I say and ran away until I got cornered. I sat on the floor hugging myself again before Adam touches me. "Stop the f^ck!" I say to him. "Adam is harassing Tara." Niall says out loud and we laughed.

We're still waiting for the signal to when we're coming out for the signing.

I'm sitting on the couch beside Adam while hearing some music with him.

"Let's take a photo." He says and opens his front camera and took a photo. "I'll be back." I say and walked to the toilet.

I fixed my hair and my shirt. I look so messed am I even going to the signing? I went back and Adam wasn't there anymore. So I sat down and went on Twitter.

"Hey." I looked at Zayn as he sits beside me. "Hello." I smiled. "What are you doing?" He asks. "Twitter." I say.

"Ducks."

Adam tweeted with the photo we had a while ago.

"Gah." I sighed. "What is it?" Zayn asks. "Adam." "Oh, is Adam dating you?" Zayn asks. "No. Why does everyone ask me that?" I say. "You seems so nice to him." Zayn says. "Right, Louis?" Zayn asks Louis who just sat down across us. "Yes. What it is?" Louis asks. "Tara and Adam." Zayn tells him. "Oh yes. Harry hates Adam." Louis says and laughs. Harry who was beside Louis looked mad at him. "What?" Louis asks and pinches Harry's cheeks and Harry smiles. We all laughed. "There's nothing with me and Adam." I clear it to them.

I wouldn't like anyone to think that there is something between us. I don't want to see Adam dating me, ever. My heart is always for Harry.


We're in Seattle now. The places are giving me a massive headache every time we fly but I thank Harry for making me feel better whenever I see him. He's my medicine.

As usual, signing in the morning, the boys' concert in the evening. But tonight, I had a little trouble since I lost some of my papers that Ms. Johnson is asking for my book and Adam asks me about it.

"Tara, you can't leave this hotel tonight without giving the papers. It is very important. Your biggest signing will be in LA in a week."

Adam sent me that message and I think I've lost it inside my bag. I can't leave my room without giving it to him or else I'm dead.

I searched my first luggage bag, took all my clothes off, I even looked at the small pockets but it wasn't there. I'm having a mini heart attack.

I searched at my next luggage bag, pulled the clothes out, unzipped the zippers, even the small ones.

I felt something inside a small zipper. I opened it and pulled the thing out. It then surprised me and of course again, I cried.

The necklace that Harry gave me. The infinity necklace he gave me last Christmas is in my luggage bag!

"How could you be here? How?!?!" I ask as I raise it up. "F^ck. No. No. No. I'm dreaming." My tears rushes down my face. I pinched myself to see if I'm dreaming but I am not. "No. No! F^ck no!" I cried. "This...no...this can't be." I stare at the necklace and why does this have to show up. "No. How could this be here..." I say and clasp it to my heart and it just beats so fast. "This is not real. No." I catch my breath as I cried.

My month went so well until this showed up out of no where. I didn't find the papers but I found the necklace. I thought that Harry took it with the note but how is this necklace here?

All of a sudden everything that happened before flashes so fast in my head that it hurts me in my heart. I've been hiding how much I miss him and I've pretended that I always feel okay, fine, great because I'm with him but deeply I am wanting him back. I just want to hug him tighter and take him back and not borrow him from time anymore.

I thought this would be a new start, a new beginning for me but it was just a continuation. Maybe my eyes are just deceiving me but as I stare at the necklace, it is not. It is real.

This proves that our memories to me won't fade easily, I'm just being stabbed in my heart right now.

I don't know what else to do. I'm afraid to be rejected by him. I'm afraid that I'll look stupid when I'll tell him, Harry remember you gave me this? I'm afraid to talk to him about the past since he'll never know what happened before.

My tears are rushing like a waterfall, I can't breath, I need him. His comfort. His love.

My phone was ringing and I didn't get to answer, I don't want to leave my room tonight from what I've seen.

"Harry... Why are you doing this to me?"

I sobbed on my hands with the necklace and shake my head.

I hear my door open.

"Tara, why are you not opening your door? You don't need to give the papers anymore." Adam says and I look up to him. I stand from sitting and grabbed ny key quickly from his hand. "Please, leave." I say and tears continue falling. "Tara... Why are you crying?" "Please, get out." I shout at him and he walks away. I locked my door and lay on my bed. The necklace on my right hand and my left covering my eyes.

"Why would you leave this?"

I feel like I'm insane and my heart just hurts so bad from crying.

All I ever wanted to be is with Harry but he is so out of my reach. I want him to know how do I feel for him. I know I get to be the people I love but do they ever know that I love them? Does Harry know that I love him that I don't even exist in his heart?

I know he wouldn't date a writer or a fangirl, he wants models, women with curves that are tall, that have nice faces. If it wasn't for the fan fiction, I wouldn't feel what it is to be with Harry.

"Tara..." I hear people from my door. "Tara... Open the door." "Tara, please." "Tara, are you okay?" "Tara!" "Tara! Open the door!" A loud knock in my door and the voice is from someone I was just thinking, Harry. "Tara! Open the door!" Harry says and I'm just so afraid to see him. The way he calls my name and tells me to open the door sounds exactly like the way he did before he left.

"Tara! Open the door!" He says and I just had to open it with the necklace on my right hand and tears streaming so bad on my face.

"I'm... Sorry." I say and Harry was standing in front me. The boys and the crew were at his back.

"Love." Harry embraces me tightly and I sob on his chest so bad. He starts to rub my back and I cried so bad on him.

"Why? Why are you crying?" He asks me but I couldn't answer. I just shake my head and sobbed on him.

Is everything back now? Is the Harry I had back now?

His hug was so tight that I don't want to let go of him anymore. I want to keep him in my arms or just pause this moment where he cries with me.

I moved away from him as I accidentally dropped the necklace from my hand and wiped my tears with the sleeves of my hoodie. "I don't even... I don't know." I reason out and looked everywhere down but I can't see since my vision is blurry from the tears.

"Babe, you dropped this." Liam says and puts the necklace in the palm of my hand. I looked at Harry and he has seen it.

"I'm... I'm sorry I don't want to come to your concert for this night." I say. "It's fine. I'm sorry whatever happened." Harry says. "I'll be fine. I'm sorry for the disturbance." I say. "No, we're sorry. Adam said you were crying so bad and your clothes were scattered so we worried." Niall says. "I'm sorry. This... This won't happen again." I apologise to all of them. "Okay. Tomorrow... Tomorrow we'll be going to San Jose. Take a rest." Louis says. "I will." I say and Harry gives me another hug before they left.

I closed my door and continued crying. I'm still trembling after seeing Harry. I thought everything came back but it didn't. I still want to figure out how did this necklace came in luggage bag.