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Chapter 29: Going Back To The Time

First day in Los Angeles and a few day left before we go back to London.

From the weak Harry we had a few days ago, he's now back to his normal state and we're glad about it.

As usual, after the signing, we had to take lunch, then the boys will be in the rehearsal later for their show in Staples center.

Everyone in the table is so happy, no problems at all since in a few days we'll be saying goodbye. I'm still wearing the necklace Harry gave me.

"Is Tara going with us later? Are you coming with us?" Zayn asks and looks at me. "No." I say with a smile and shook my head. "Why don't you want to see us sing live?" Niall asks and I couldn't answer it. "I'll be doing a Twitcam with my friends later." I say. "But promise that tomorrow you will watch us? Last show is tomorrow's." Harry says. "Yes." "Promise?" He asks. "I... I promise." I answer and he smiles.

After lunch, they went to the venue and I came with them but I'll be back soon in my hotel room.

I'm in a room, the lounge and looked outside the window where there were fans outside. I sat on the couch and looked around. Everyone wasn't that busy but they were just chilling.

"Hey." Harry stands in front of me. "You look bored." He says. "Do you want a tour?" He asks me and I stand from my seat and we started to walks around. I was just silent whilst he's touring me around the venue. He told me they have performed here before so he wanted to tour me around. I couldn't say anything. I'm very silent and knowing that a few days ago I want to talk to him but now, I cant even utter a word.

"And here's where we change our wardrobe." He says as he shows me the clothes they'll be using. "You're so quiet." He says to me with a smile. "Ah, come with me. If you're silent, here's not. Follow me." He says and I did.

He slides a door open and screams from their fans says hello to my ears. I smiled to the thousands of them and Harry waves. "Get my book and you'll get to kiss Harry!" I shout to them and we both laughed. "And me and Adam aren't dating so stop trending Tadam!" I add and we laughed again. We stayed there for just a few minutes and went back inside. Harry closes the door and tours me around. The backstage is so big.

"And here is where we spend some of our time, playing some games..." He just continues to talk and the room is empty and maybe here I can talk to him about what happened to him a few days ago.

"Harry." I call him and he looks at me. "Yes?" "Can I ask you something? It... It's about what happened a few days ago. When...when you collapsed on stage." I say and he nods. "Why... Why on earth would Harry Styles get so weak?" I ask him as I shrugged. "Harry Styles... Harry Styles was just tired." He says with a smile. "You got me---"

"Harry, rehearsal. Oh, hi, Tara." Niall says with a smile. "We have to go now." Niall says. "We'll talk again later." He says and walks to the door that was opened. "Promise?" I say and he stops walking and glances at me with a smile. "I promise." He then continues to walk away and I suddenly realised why did I say that? Why did it came out of my mouth?

The boys were rehearsing and I went back to my room and sleep. Later night, the management has approved for my three hours session on Twitcam with my friends, or fans, but I prefer calling them friends.

Before I do anything else, I walked outside to my balcony and saw the perfect view of the beach. I would love to go there later night but first, I have to give my mum a bell.

"Hello." I say. "Hello, Tara. We miss you here." She says. "Oh, mum." I laughed. "It's really great here in Los Angeles. I really want to go home soon. I'll visit you there." I say. "We really want you to come over. Ashton's missing you too." She says. "Nah! Not really!" I hear Ashton from the background. "Mum, I want to talk to Ashton." I say. "Okay, here." She says.

"What is it?" Ashton says. "Do you miss me?" I jokingly ask him. "No." He says with a laugh. "I've bought your book and finished reading it. It's ace. I asked Katherine to read it too." He says. "What did Kate say?" "She will. She's currently on chapter ten." Ashton adds and I sat down. "It's hot here in Los Angeles." I say. "Heatwave here. Oh, did dad call you?" "Yes. A week ago. He congratulated me with my book." I say. "He wants to see us. I told him you're on tour with One Direction." Ashton says. "Does mum know about it?" I ask. "Yeah." He answers.

"I have to go now. We'll talk soon or later. I'll see you next week?" Ash asks me and yes, next week sounds good. "Okay. Next week." I answer and we ended our short call.

"I'm loving the view of the beach here! I want to stay there later midnight!! xx"

"Good luck to @onedirection performing later night!"

I tweeted before I take my power nap.



"Hi everyone. It's currently...nine in the evening here. Uh, nine-thirty it is. I just woke up from my nap. Do you even call that a nap? Well, anyway, tomorrow's our last day, maybe my? Last day. Last day of my book signing and by now, I really want to thank you all for buying Boyfriend it really means so much to me." I say as I'm doing my Twitcam on my desk. "I was just some fangirl who writes a lot of stories and post them online. I actually don't give out my stories to other people because before. I just think that they will see my stories are immature or for just kids but I was wrong. I really thank Footprints for choosing me to write the fan fiction for Harry." I add and took a drink from my juice that is in the bottle. "So, the boys are having their show. I'm really proud for them. I'm really thanking them a lot for accepting me in their family and I just feel that we're all close friends and it's pretty ace." I smiled and I guess it's already time to answer their questions again which is a great way of interacting with them.

"So, as usual, what we're going to do is answer your question! I'm going to read some here in the chatbox on my right. Okay! Let's start." I take a deep breath and laughed a little as I started to read their questions.

My Twitcam is about to finish and Adam sent me a message that the boys are on their way back to the hotel to rest now.

"So, the boys are on their way back from their show, and I already have to go. It's really nice chatting with you all. I'll do the next Twitcam when I get back to London. I'll be checking out the beach in a few so, yeah, thank you all so much! Get a copy of Boyfriend! Bye!" I waved and closed my browser.

After a few minutes, I'm wearing a sweatshirt and loose trousers that are like pajamas. I'll be going to the beach, well I'm not going to swim or anything, I'll just be sitting and having the warm breeze of LA.

I walked outside my room and exactly saw Adam on his door. "Hey." He looks at me. "I just want to go down to the beach." I say. "For a swim?" He asks. "No. I just want to get out of my room." I answer. "Okay, I'll be having some rest down. Today's really tiring." "Good night." I say and Adam smiles. "Good night." He answers and I walked away.

I went outside, the mini bar is open but there's not much people around. I wouldn't like to have a drink since I only went down here to relax and living inside my room all day is tiring.

I sat down on a beach chair and leaned my back. The view is absolutely brilliant.

"Love this place so much."

I tweeted with a photo of the beach. It's really nice and warm down here than in my room

I scrolled on Twitter and Niall just tweeted.

"Can't believe it ! You crazy mofos are so awesome !! Last day of tour tomorrow !"

Ah, I can't believe tomorrow's the last day. I feel so sad that I have to say goodbye to the boys now and at the same time happy because I'll be going back to London after a long time.

"Hello."

I look at my left and surprisingly saw Harry. He sits on the chair beside me and I lean forward and sat indian on the chair.

"Harry. Uhm, why are you here?" I ask him. "I promised that I would talk to you again, right?" He says with a smile. "You don't have to. You should be taking a rest now because tomorrow will be your last tour. Like, give it all the best tomorrow." I say and he laughs. "We haven't talk to each other for a while." He says and I smiled to the ground. "I thought you will go clubbing again." I say with a laugh. "Nah, I'll save myself for tomorrow." He says.

"Can I ask you something personal again? You know it feels like you're the one I've been the closest to. I don't know if you agree with this but I'm honestly comfortable with you. I guess it is because I wrote a story about you and... and it made me feel that I've... I have known you for the long time." I say. "I talk too much. Gah. I guess it's because of the ambiance." I say and looked at him. "It's absolutely fine. I'm glad you're comfortable with me." He says and he's cheeks were rising. Oh my, he's just so cute.

"Okay, so can I shoot this question to you?" "Shoot?" He laughs. "I don't know. I just heard it a while ago from the people in the lobby." I say. "Okay, just ask me but this will just be between the both of us." He says and I nod.

"Harry, are you dating someone?" I directly ask him and he seemed surprised with the question. "I'm... I'm sorry about it... You know these past few days you look so different, I mean act so different... Adam and Louis told me you were clubbing every night, I... I don't know if that's normal but... I just have no idea. You... You just worry me." I say and looked at his eyes when I say the last word. He was smiling and I waited for his answer. "No. I'm not dating anyone. And don't worry, I'm not sick." He says and I felt relief. Of course it is very nice to hear it from him. "Oh, okay." I nod and I guess our conversation is now done.

"How about you? Are you dating Adam?" Harry asks me and I looked at him, surprised from his question, I laughed. "No. I am not. I've told them a while ago on my Twitcam that I'm not dating Ada. Gah, he may really look so attractive and nice but no. How many time will I tell you I don't even like him or see him in a romantic thingamajigger with me?" I looked at him and he laughs. "Thinga what?" Harry asks with a loud laugh and he covers his mouth. "Thingamajigger. I guess I've watched too much Little Mermaid a while ago." I say with a smile and shook my head. He was just laughing so I laughed at his laugh.

"I thought he gave you that." He says and his eyes points to my necklace that was out from my sweatshirt. "Oh, this?" I hold it. "No. He didn't. Ugh." I put it down and looked so far at the sea. "It seems special to you. May I know who gave that?" He politely asks and oh gah, this is the first time he asked politely. "It... It was given by someone special." I answer. "Boyfriend?" He asks and I don't know how to answer it. I take a deep breath and nod. "Yes." I seriously answered without looking at him. "Well, he's gone now." I add. "Is he dead?" Harry asks and I let a light laugh out. "No. He isn't." "Where is he?" "He's just somewhere. He's...he's the one...in my dedication." I answer. "I miss him. A lot. I wish I had more time with him. You know he helped me out with the book." I say as I looked at him and tears started to fall from my eyes. "Oh." I wiped them and smiled. I want him to know what was everything all about before but I know he won't remember anything. "I still love him like a did before. I'm... I'm just afraid that when I'll approach him I know he will reject me, I mean, he'll just ask what I'm talking about because he doesn't... Oh gah." I wiped my tears with the end of my sleeves. The words coming out from my mouth aren't supposed to be said to anyone.

"I don't want... To talk about him anymore." I say and looked at Harry whose tears were falling from his eyes. His elbows were on his knees and the tears are falling on the sand.

"Why are you crying? I'm sorry... I got carried away much." I say but I don't even get close to him. "No, nothing." He sits back and looks at me. I glanced away to the beach because I didn't want to see him cry. He makes me weak.

"Tara..." He says and I looked at him. "I know who the guy is. It's me." He says and I didn't know what else to say. "When we went to Glasgow to see him and watch Ed's concert. When we went here in LA to have Christmas and I gave you that necklace. We fought when we got back from Newcastle and I knew it all." He says and I just looked at him and let the tears fall down my eyes. "I read the book again and I can't remember anything that is written but I know what isn't." He says and I shake my head. "I left the necklace in your luggage because I knew that one day, we'll meet again and it won't be in London after you told me you're having a book in Footprints." He says as he is crying. "When did you remember... it all?" I ask him. "When I saw that necklace back in Seattle." He answers and I sobbed on my hands. "That... That was the reason why I felt weak and had massive headaches. It was the reason that I collapsed in singing. I remembered everything we had that weren't written." He says and I stand from my seat, embarrassed. "Why didn't you tell me?" I ask him. "I... I wasn't ready." He says and I shake my head and sobbed badly on my hands. "Tara..." "No..." I ran away from him and quickly went back to my room.

My hands were trembling whilst I try to open my door with my key but it can't fit. I almost broke my card key and I can hear the lift's ting as it reached the floor. My vision is blurry from the tears that were playing on my eyes, it made me hard to insert my key.

I heard footsteps on my left and saw a guy wearing a plain white shirt and it was Harry.

"Tara..."

He was a few inches away me when I opened the door and he pushes the door as I push it back so he won't come inside.

"Tara, please, let's talk." He begs and I don't know what to say but I'm already crying my heart out.

"Tara, please, love." I looked at him and he was crying so bad. I never want to see Harry cry like that.

I moved away from the door and sat on the floor. I hugged my knees as I put my head down to it.

"Tara, listen to me." He says as he holds both of my hands. "Go... Go away." I say. Embarrassed from what I did to him. I can't show him my face. "Tara, look at me." He says as he sounded panting.

I looked up at him and he was terribly crying than me.

"Harry... I'm sorry. I didn't--- I didn't know how everything happened... How it all happened. I... Took the chance because I love...you. Harry, I seriously do. I... I didn't care about the attention people gave me. I didn't care about what I get that time. I promise. All... I wanted was your love..." I say as I catch my breath and it's making me hard to speak.

"I'm apologising. From the bottom of my heart. I... I am very sorry." I say and he was just silent. His lips pressed as his tears were flowing.

I pull my hands away from him and placed it at the back of my neck. I took the necklace off and pulled his hand, I placed it inside his palm and closed it.

"I'm sorry." I say as I clasp my hands to his and stand. I walk to my bed and hid under the covers and continued crying.

I heard the door close but I still remain under the covers wanting to cry myself to sleep.