closer // harry styles

Chapter 63

Chapter 63

I gasped as the name sunk in, along with my sinking heart. Of course Alex did this. I'm never going to get rid of him, am I? What possibly provoked him to do something this terrible, what caused him to be such a terrible person? I thought back to the days when we were dating, before I moved to England. Back then, we really loved each other; but the thought of ever having those same feelings towards him makes my stomach turn. I could never love him again, even if he completely changed. I moved to England, and he followed me, and then hurt me. He was the problem, and he was what made me harm myself. I was then taken back to that time: the times when I cut myself.

I admit, the pain felt good at those times, and I couldn't stop. What made me stop was Harry, and how life was going so well, but Alex would always find his way back. Maybe I should start again... no, Ariana. It's just that if it helped then, wouldn't it help now? With everything going on from Alex to Cassidy, maybe I should-

"Ariana!" Harry's voice startled me, shaking me from my thoughts. I looked around the room, and we were still in Cassidy's hospital room, but the doctor was gone.

"Did you hear me, babe?" Harry asked, his wide green eyes looking into mine, and I shook my head.

"I asked if you were okay... you were just staring into space."

"Oh... Well, I'm not okay." I admitted, biting my cheek to prevent the tears. "I was just thinking."

"About what?" He asked, and pulled me into a hug.

"Everything." I sighed, moving my hand up his back, and glancing at my scarred wrists over his shoulder.

"Anything in particular?" He asked.

"No, I'm just tired." I said, pulling away from him.

"Let's go lay down." He suggested, taking my hand in his.

"Where?"

"At our house." He smiled, causing me to slightly smile too. His gorgeous smile was contagious; the way his dimples poked holes in his cheeks, and his perfect teeth shone, making his eyes squint, and become even greener.

"One second." I stopped him, my smile fading as I dropped his hand and walked over to Cassidy. I kneeled down beside her bed, and held her dainty hand.

"I love you." I whispered to her, and kissed her forehead.

Harry came over and knelt down beside me, and that's when the tears spilled over. Harry put his hand on top of mine, and looked into his daughter's eyes.

"I can't believe Alex did this to you." I shook my head, leaning on Harry's shoulder, as he wrapped his arm around me, and kissed my temple. I looked up to him, and his eyes were glossy, and he had a tear running down his face. I kissed the tear away, and hugged him, leaning my head on his shoulder as he rubbed my back.

We gave Cassidy one last kiss, and left. We told everyone where we were going, and got in the car.

"Call me if you need anything, okay?" Anne asked, and hugged me tightly.

"I will, thank you." I tried to smile. I took Harry's hand again, and we took the elevator down to the first floor, and stepped off. We walked through the parking lot in silence, and climbed in his car. He turned it on, along with the quiet radio, and pulled out of the parking lot. He rested his hand on my thigh, and I put my hand on top of his, leaning my head back.

"I love you." He told me, looking over at me.

"I love you." I smiled, quickly leaning over and kissing him as we both closed our eyes. We hadn't really kissed each other in a while, but we've kissed each other more recently then we've had sex. There's been too much going on lately, but oh how I missed his damn sex.