Forever My Alpha

17

This was what he was hiding from me.

What he truly was.

Elijah.

The man I loved.

Was a werewolf.

Only I, out of the whole world would fall in love with a man that wasn't even a man! He was a werewolf. A thought to be of fiction or fairy tales. Dimitri had told me of shifters but I didn't think I was living among them. It was all in front of me. All the hints and obvious signs that I was oblivious too, naive. And to top it off I was there Luna, the one to stand beside there Alpha, Elijah.

This was to much for me to take. This was a responsibility I didn't ask for. Was I to be like him and take care of his pack? Would I become one as well? Could I already be one and not know it! Shit did this mean Richard was one too!? Was everyone around me a werewolf and I never knew it! How many have kept me in the dark to this! Why didn't anyone tell me! Arabella... She was one too. For four years she's lived with me and never said anything!

Was it all a joke to them?

Let's make fun of the human. Let's mark her so she will be stuck with us for life.

Did Arabella choose me because one day no one would think to look for me? What are they going to do to me now that I knew!

Worst of all, did Elijah even love me?

Why should I even care! He is a werewolf. A four legged beast preying on innocent unsuspected women! I gave myself to that man! I gave him everything just for him to throw it in my face. He should have told me if he truly loved me. What hurt most was the deceit of not fully opening up to me that was something I should have been told in the beginning. This was my life that he just took into his hands and blindly place me into a position that I had no clue how to fill!

But would I have accepted him?

That was a very good question. Aside from the secrecy and the wolf thing. Maybe I would have. Now I would never know. Even though I just ran away from him, I felt pain like when my parents died. A hollowness grown the farther I went away from him.

Come on!

He just turned into a giant fucking wolf! He's a terrifying large, top of the food chain werewolf! He fucking has been messing with me this whole time! Living with me in both forms. That's why he wanted me to always wear his feather out because it was his the whole time! That fucking bastards has been toying with me this whole time!

Grasping onto the feather itself I wanted to pull it out and be done with it but the moment it touched my fingers, I couldn't. Even being angry at the man himself it still seemed to calm me. A gentle touch that melted the anger away but left the pain. My whole body ached from the physical running and my heart. I felt so cold without him. Like an invisible rope that was tethered to him pulled so tight that had snap from the far distance between us. He had kept this from me the whole time though! That hurt more then anything to think he didn't trust me with the secret itself. I was supposed to be his mate but yet he didn't trust me!

Lifting the visor back up my mind continued to wonder over the empty sky. It was hours later till I landed getting off in a place I've never been before. I hadn't really thought about were I was going just taking the next available fight that happened to be to New York. I had a apartment there that my parents had owned now being mine. I hadn't been to it sense having been the last place we had celebrated Christmas.

Christmas.

It seemed I was going to be alone for the holiday which depressingly right now I was fine with. I needed some time to sort out my thoughts and what this meant for Elijah and I. By hiding his true self has put me in a very difficult position. Lunas look over the pack beside the Alpha. I would be expected to take on the role. That's what Lucy was talking about, responsibility.