Okay so this chapter has to have a lot of things being said and none of them relate to one another in any way. Let's get started!
1.) Do you guys also just kind of see someone on the Internet, possibly even a friend (yes. This does sometimes include you guys. I'm not going to mention any ships I have including one of you though because that could be awkward.), and you just think: Wow. They would be so cute with that person.
I do. Did anyone else ship Storm and Blake?
2.) The fact that Storm's account has been deleted has made me feel almost desolate. I'm not sure if that's really the word to describe it. Idk.
I guess I'm just realizing that my hopes that I'd be able to be friends with everyone on here that I'm friends with now, might not be able to even talk to me at all when I get older. I've cried twice already. And the thing is, I don't even really know you guys. I mean, all of you are awesome and beautiful and I am 100% sure of that, but I don't know what your friends are like. I don't know what your families are like. I don't know what most of you look like. Will most of you ever know what I look like?
I also have been going on silent rages when I see someone on one of Storm's fics getting mad because he didn't update. We don't even know if he's alive, and they have the audacity to demand updates? It just makes me so angry when people do that.
Don't get me wrong, I know I've been plenty rude in the past, and I deeply regret it. But I also know a lot of those people must be older than I was when I joined and was rude (Thanks to those who put up with me. It means a lot.) and they should know better. I should too. We all should.
3.) HirCausticTyde
Tyde, how did you remember my birthday? Was it just a coincedence that you sent me that on my birthday? Either way, it was so amazing. I swear your message was the highlight of my freaking year. Thank you so much. I don't know how much of it you wanted to be a secret, so I won't say much, but thank you. I really appreciated it.
4.) I feel like (other than being out but not accepted) questioning is the worst stage to be in. You know enough to know you are possibly not straight or maybe you're not the gender you were born with. You know some, but not enough to know for sure.
I started questioning a few months before my vacation this year, which was sometime near the end of May I think. We were going to Disney and Universal (the Florida ones) and I was really excited because I hadn't been to Universal in a long time.
But, on the second day, I think I just kind of decided I didn't want to have to wonder about myself anymore.
So I made a list of things that possibly fit me. I didn't get to finish, though, because soon we were at the park. The whole day I couldn't stop trying to figure it out.
Then, when we went back to the hotel, I went back to my list (which I locked in notes. My parents would never check notes.) and I finally chose the one I thought was best.
That's a story as to what you shouldn't definitely never do.
I rushed myself way too much. I rushed figuring it out. I rushed coming out. I rushed everything.
And now, seven months later, I'm back to square one.
(I thought of a horrid rhyming poem about this the other day but it swears so I won't post it.)
5.) I forgot how much quicker time passes when you're on Wattpad, writing. Almost an hour.
6.) 605 followers? Guys, that's so awesome. I can't even believe it.
Okay. I'm done. Thank you all so much, you're awesome.
How have you been?
