Fix You [Vic Fuentes]

Chapter 20

Song of the Chapter: Sadness Will Never End by Bring Me The Horizon.

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Chapter Name: When Will it End?

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Vic's POV

It still hasn't hit me that there was going to be no more trips to the hospital anymore. It still hasn't hit me that one of my best friends wasn't alive anymore. It still hasn't hit me that he was never coming back.

I thought of it as a sick practical joke. I was waiting for someone to jump out from behind the door and yell, "you've just been punk'd". But, it never happened. I was still sitting on the floor, Kayleigh laid in my arms, crying out every bit of sadness she could, I didn't know what to do either. I've never been the comforter, I was always the one being comforted. So I just patted her hair, and let her sob into my shirt- tracing circles on her back with my free hand. That's how I would have wanted someone to comfort me. And I didn't say a word, but only whispered 'shh' every now and then. I wasn't thinking about Coby, to be completely honest, but only Kayleigh and how upset she was.

I didn't know much about her family, besides her nana spoke French or the few stories that Coby would tell me when Kayleigh went to go get her food and my apple. But I did know that Coby was all she had besides her pathetic excuse for a mother. And now that he was gone, she didn't have anyone anymore. I guess now that's why I wanted to make sure that I took as much care for her as possible, because I know what it's like to be alone and I don't want her to experience that.

It's funny cause' a couple of weeks ago, I would refuse to talk to her and call her every name under the sun, wishing she'd never come into my life. And now I want to help her.

I looked down at Kayleigh, whose head was in my lap, her nose touching my stomach, and hands clutching my shirt while she cried. I have never seen someone look so sad before, and that's when it hit me. Seeing her so torn up about it, bought me back into a tough reality. The reality where there wasn't a Coby. And there was a selfish mother, who let her child die right in front of her without telling anyone. Who fled to another state, just to stop Kayleigh from finding her after she told her the news. The kind of reality which keeps me in this hospital, not able to get out unless my mum comes back. The kind of reality where I have no one, and Kayleigh has no one. Because in reality, we are all just lonely people. In a lonely world. With no one to give a shit about it.

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It was when I woke up that I felt a sharp pain in my neck. I was still on the floor, leaning up against the desk in Kayleigh's room, with her sound asleep on my lap. My head was on an awkward angle, hense the throbbing sensation in my neck, which I tried to massage out. Of course it didn't work, so I looked at Kayleigh, watching her as soft snores escaping her lips. And every now and then, a small hiccup would sound throughout the silenced room from when she was crying.

I was wondering what the time was, but I couldn't move to find out, and the iPod in my pocket was dead so I had to wake her. I rubbed my neck, while looking at her, finding a way to wake her up without sounding like an idiot.