Nothingness

Gray...

"..Y/n.. Y/n... Y/n!" Kyle says.
"H-huh?" I stutter.

The blonde hair boy had walked back in.
I stared at him, and then realized that I was moving.

Why am I so slow..? I am realizing things a while after they happen...
what's wrong with me?
Next thing I know I'm on my bed and a doctor was tending to my cuts.

I close my eyes again and drift to sleep.

You did it. I can give you another dream now.
th-thank you.
anything for a friend.

I wake up without a dream. It was better than having a bad dream I guess.
He is probably gonna give me one later.

I look around me.

Kyle. Zane. Blondie. Doctor.

hm...

"I-im Garroth." Blondie says finally introducing himself, when he talked we all jumped from the sudden noise.

I look over in his direction.

flicker
flicker flicker

He has a sheepish smile on his face.

"Y/n" I say blankly.
I want to have more emotion,
But... I... cant...

Kyle is stronger than you. Kyle is a bad brother. He gave all the emotion to you. He left all the suffering for you.
No... h-he just is.. able to cope with it more! He can't control that!
say what you wanna say! But you know it's true! THINK ABOUT IT!
IT'S NOT TRUE! NO! I DON'T BELIEVE IT! JUST GO AWAY!
HOW DARE YOU SAY THAT TO A FRIEND!
YOUR NO FRIEND! UGGGHHH!

I open my eyes again.
I don't mean to close them, and most of the time I don't realize until after I talk to teddy.
I look around.
hm...

"Y/n... you ok?" Zane says as he moves over to my bed.
I nod.

wait... I'm NOT ok...
I'm far from ok!

"NO! I'M NOT OK!" I suddenly scream. I scare Kyle, Garroth jumps, and Zane just stares at me.
Zane stares like he knew that I would say that.
He stares like he knew that would happen.
Like he knew I was lying.
He just waited.
not even flinching.
"I-I JUST CAN'T ANYMORE! I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME! TO MANY THINGS ARE HAPPENING IN MY MIND AND WORLD AND I'M SO CONFUSED!" I yell.
I let out everything.

Why me!?!?
Why us!?!?
Why...

flicker flicker flicker

gray...
The gray has not gone away this time.
Usually it goes back to color.
This time it hasn't changed yet.
I start to look around in panic.
Colors...

Colors..

my color, it has drained...
Where is my light?
Where is my dark?
Colors!?!?
I need you...
I look around in slight panic.
I feel like everything is in slow motion.
I get slightly nauseous.
I close my eyes and then open them.
still gray...

NO! No no no no no no no! NO!

"UUGGHH!" I yell.
By now there is a few nurses and my doctor in the room.
I see another unfamiliar person too.

Dr.Doctor comes up to me and holds me.
A nurse sticks a needle in my arm and the others are laying me down.
I fall asleep with tears in my eyes..

Why me...?