Nothingness

My classes

As I walk in I see how many people are in the classroom.
It's been so long since I've been around people I don't know.
These past like, 2 months I've been with the same people.

I take a deep breath and sit down in the back of the classroom.
please don't tell me to introduce myself
please don't tell me to introduce myself
please don't tell me to introduce myself
pleaasee don't tell me-

"Good morning class. I want to start of by saying we have a new student.-" He sits down at his desk and continues. "Now, I want to start of by saying, be kind, be thoughtful, and most importantly, be a friend."

I squirm in my chair a little bit, slowly sliding down.
I think he noticed this and he cleared his throat.

"Her name is Y/n L/n. She is a very unique young lady and I think she will be very successful. " He finishes.

I smile a little bit.

A girl in the front raises her hand.
"Yes?"

"How come she isn't up front telling us about herself?" She asks genuinely curious.

"Well.. erm.. I've decided not to this time..yeah! I've decided not to." He says back to her glancing at me.

I bite my lip and slouch in my chair more.

"But I had to! And so did everyone else in the first say of school! That's not fair!" A hot pink haired girl butted in.

I frown.
What is her problem?

She stands up and turns around, scanning the whole back of the classroom.

Then her eyes land on me.
oh no..

"You! Your the new kid!-"
"Ivy sit down please! Everyone focus on me. Don't be influenced by-" The teacher starts.

"Shut up Mr.Shad! I'm talking! Anyways tell me about yourself. Stand up and stop being different than us! Your no better than the rest of us!" She spat at me.

I flinch at all the yelling.
I know..
I'm nowhere near as good as you all.
I'm far below you...
far..
far..
below...

Dang right.
shut up. Please.
But I came to help you through the day!
fine.. but be quite ok?

I look back up.
I had look down to talk to teddy.
The Ivy girl was in front of me.
Her face was red, and she looked angry.

"Answer me! Your not better than me! NOBODY IS!!!" She yells at me.

Then the teacher rushes over to us and tries to pull Ivy away.

"GET OFF OF ME!"

I bring my legs up from under the desk and shove my face in them.
stop..
stop..
stop yelling..
please!

They are both yelling at each other.

STOP STOP STOP STOP

"Stop!" I yell accidentally.
oops..

oh no.. Now they are probably going to send me back home.
or maybe worse..
back to the hospital..

"I'm sorry.." I whisper.

The teacher goes to his desk as Ivy starts to argue with another person.
Next thing I know more teachers have come in.

"Come with me sweetheart, Your going to stay in my room for today, for your safety. Is that ok?" She asks me kindly, crouching down at my side.

I nod my head and she leads me out of the classroom.
they know.. Don't They?
They were told about me..about what happens to me.. what I do..
They were told I have problems..
I can never be treated as a normal person...